Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers).

WarriorServant · 12-12-2009, 06:15 PM

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Originally Posted by BROOK

Well...it sounds to me like you have a 'gift'..and that is why you are under attack! Just my observation...my opinion only.

While it is tempting to say: "yes I have a gift" and that's why I have been attacked all my life! ..I cannot say anything for sure. I have my suspicions, and I tell you (with NO word of a lie), I AM different than most people. But how? Why? .. I don;t know. I just don't know. I wish I did. But I just don't and it's not going to help matters to pretend to.

BROOK · 12-12-2009, 06:18 PM

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Originally Posted by WarriorServant

While it is tempting to say: "yes I have a gift" and that's why I have been attacked all my life! ..I cannot say anything for sure. I have my suspicions, and I tell you (with NO word of a lie), I AM different than most people. But how? Why? .. I don;t know. I just don't know. I wish I did. But I just don't and it's not going to help matters to pretend to.

I would wager, they have more to be afraid of you for then anything else...that is why they are after you....control and confuse tactic...to keep you under control. And it seems you are fighting it. Just my observation again from what you have said so far. It seems they attack people of high energy, and talent, keep that in mind

WarriorServant · 12-12-2009, 06:32 PM

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Originally Posted by BROOK

I would wager, they have more to be afraid of you for then anything else...that is why they are after you....control and confuse tactic...to keep you under control. And it seems you are fighting it. Just my observation again from what you have said so far. It seems they attack people of high energy, and talent, keep that in mind

Well, I have most certainly been attacked. I could also go on about how I have been attacked in life (but that would just sound like a hard luck story, and I'm off it). And the confusion? Well, BRAVO! They've done a FANTASTIC job! 5 stars! I am WELL confused. But, I still refuse to latch onto conclusions -- because I know that if I do, I will be restricted. I KNOW there's some important stuff that I know, but I can't quite access it. I get flashes and images, and I KNOW there's something there but I can't quite see it. I KNOW there's something "about me", "around me", and sometimes I get a sniff.. but I lose it a second later.

You know what I wish? And I have prayed for? I want some wisdom / education from someone that is not human. I have learned all I can from humans. I was a child and I respected adults and I asked a MILLION questions. I remember. My parents told me to shut up! Stop asking so many questions. Then I went to school and I was SHATTERED! I COULDN'T STAND that place! I got sent out of the class on a daily basis. By the time I got to highschool, I just never went. For that reason, I have little to no formal education besides primary school and a little bit of highscool.

I was upset because there was no one left to look up to. I came to the realization that everyone had limitations. No one had answers. I grew up so fast and understood everything so early -- and then there was no one. No one to explain the questions that I had -- and they were endless. By the time I hit my teens I looked at most adults like they were just stupid. That's why I never listened in school. I wanted MORE!

I still want more. I am in my 30's now and I am STILL asking questions. I am STILL learning. I am STILL running at a million miles an hour and in my head I am {{{{SCREAMING}}}} .. "IS THIS ALL THERE IS???"...

If I have ANY talent. If I have ANY gift. It is totally wasted in this putrid, horrid, horrible place where no one gives a flying rats **** about anything that isn't happening in their own little bubble. I feel deserted on an island -- and to be quite frank, I'm "NOT IMPRESSED"!

BROOK · 12-12-2009, 06:45 PM

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Originally Posted by WarriorServant

Well, I have most certainly been attacked. I could also go on about how I have been attacked in life (but that would just sound like a hard luck story, and I'm off it). And the confusion? Well, BRAVO! They've done a FANTASTIC job! 5 stars! I am WELL confused. But, I still refuse to latch onto conclusions -- because I know that if I do, I will be restricted. I KNOW there's some important stuff that I know, but I can't quite access it. I get flashes and images, and I KNOW there's something there but I can't quite see it. I KNOW there's something "about me", "around me", and sometimes I get a sniff.. but I lose it a second later.

You know what I wish? And I have prayed for? I want some wisdom / education from someone that is not human. I have learned all I can from humans. I was a child and I respected adults and I asked a MILLION questions. I remember. My parents told me to shut up! Stop asking so many questions. Then I went to school and I was SHATTERED! I COULDN'T STAND that place! I got sent out of the class on a daily basis. By the time I got to highschool, I just never went. For that reason, I have little to no formal education besides primary school and a little bit of highscool.

I was upset because there was no one left to look up to. I came to the realization that everyone had limitations. No one had answers. I grew up so fast and understood everything so early -- and then there was no one. No one to explain the questions that I had -- and they were endless. By the time I hit my teens I looked at most adults like they were just stupid. That's why I never listened in school. I wanted MORE!

I still want more. I am in my 30's now and I am STILL asking questions. I am STILL learning. I am STILL running at a million miles an hour and in my head I am {{{{SCREAMING}}}} .. "IS THIS ALL THERE IS???"...

If I have ANY talent. If I have ANY gift. It is totally wasted in this putrid, horrid, horrible place where no one gives a flying rats **** about anything that isn't happening in their own little bubble. I feel deserted on an island -- and to be quite frank, I'm "NOT IMPRESSED"!

There is not a whole lot you've said here..that I do not agree to, and have had experience in many of these areas. Especially the part about something being right at your finger tips...but can't quite reach. It's frustrating indeed. In fact that is the area I happen to be working on on a personal level.
Trust me when I say this. They are after you for your talent and what you can bring to the table. And weather you believe it or not, you probably have it within you to control them at some level. Have you thought about it in those terms?

Jonah · 12-12-2009, 06:46 PM

I think alot of people can relate to you last statement....

Sometimes I get tired. But once i can accept the cards that i'm delt, i learn that the people around me (the ones I hold in contempt for being close minded) are the ones that i have to enlighten.

And I can't do that with expectations. I can't do that with stand offish arguments over facts.

I have to wait.... Until they open the door for me to walk through.

It sux man.. but when the look of realization comes over there face.... it's worth it. People get to make choices. We have to let them. Through this process understanding is possible. But it's the window of opportunity that has to be manifested. ok i'm starting to preach ... good day to you my friends

BROOK · 12-12-2009, 07:04 PM

Well, I'm off to work now..so keep the good flow here, and if I can I will look in. This is a good thread, worth keeping up on. I will be back tonight to see how it progresses.

Blessings
Brook

Northern Boy · 12-12-2009, 11:19 PM

WarriorServant said

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"IS THIS ALL THERE IS???

I have been asking myself this very question for 34 yrs and the answer has never been provided to me

Initiate · 12-13-2009, 12:08 AM

Thankyou WarriorServant for sharing your experiences.

My search for truth sounds a lot like yours. I will offer insight if something rings a bell and says I need to share. I have never seen what you have seen. I have woken up and found scratches that I can't explain how they got there. I believe I will never know all the answers but it doesn't stop me searching. I have asked God to lead me to the truth and slowly but surely I have been lead through progressive revelation. If I say something that just doesn't ring true with you then I am happy to have this pointed out. I post on information that I have been researching and is relevant. As I believe the search has led me too it for a reason. I believe that the "walk-in" topic is relevant to you in some way.

My gut instinct, which often serves me in life, tells me that you are strongly associated with "the light". You are infact under attack because you so strongly associated with the light and you have protectors. You live in two worlds on an equal basis. You are in the physical and also the spiritual and are aware equally of both. Again, please don't take me wrong as I don't know how or why I am telling you this. I just do. The biggest problem you face is amnessia. You wake up sometimes in pain or hurt because you have gone through a particularily tough fight. The great thing is you survived and won. Again, if I am way off base then I appologise in advance.

I ask you. how many times in your life have people just come out and said... "Thank you dear, your an angel"?

WarriorServant · 12-13-2009, 05:52 AM

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Originally Posted by Initiate

Thankyou WarriorServant for sharing your experiences.

My search for truth sounds a lot like yours. I will offer insight if something rings a bell and says I need to share. I have never seen what you have seen. I have woken up and found scratches that I can't explain how they got there. I believe I will never know all the answers but it doesn't stop me searching.

Yeah, I don't have all the answers either. However, I do believe that we will -- eventually. I think we need to have patience. If there's one thing I believe very strongly, it's that there IS a point to all this that's happening to this world and this life; and all that's ASSOCIATED with this life, and I have absolutely no doubt whatsoever that there's A LOT more, "all around us" that's going on, that we just can't see properly at this stage. A lot of people don't get the point (and I'm not saying I'm any different), and some people flat out refuse to believe that there even is one. A lot of people believe we're all overgrown slime balls from some ancient primordial swamp. But because I DO strongly believe there's a point, even though I don't have all the answers, that gives me the will to keep on keeping on and just try to be patient.

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Originally Posted by Initiate

I have asked God to lead me to the truth and slowly but surely I have been lead through progressive revelation. If I say something that just doesn't ring true with you then I am happy to have this pointed out. I post on information that I have been researching and is relevant. As I believe the search has led me too it for a reason. I believe that the "walk-in" topic is relevant to you in some way.

I have spent a LOT of time in conversation with God. I am always asking questions and asking for wisdom and knowledge. However, I understand that we need to work towards that and put in effort for ourselves. So therefore, I specifically state in my prayers that I am not after a rosy path. I ask that God convict me ALWAYS and not turn me over to a reprobate mind. I ask that God leads me into a path of righteousness and lets me learn from experiences and obstacles so that I don't have to face the same old problems over and over again. I want to move forward. I want to move away from being the ignorant and silly, unknowing state that I am. I have been watching the walk in topic, and I did look at the one that was pointed out to me, but in all honestly, at this point -- I think some people are letting their imaginations run away with them. Nevertheless, I have reserved my opinion, as I do believe there is some truth to what people are saying; but there's a difference between having a "sniff" of a cake and having a "whole cake" to eat.

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Originally Posted by Initiate

My gut instinct, which often serves me in life, tells me that you are strongly associated with "the light". You are infact under attack because you so strongly associated with the light and you have protectors. You live in two worlds on an equal basis. You are in the physical and also the spiritual and are aware equally of both. Again, please don't take me wrong as I don't know how or why I am telling you this. I just do. The biggest problem you face is amnessia. You wake up sometimes in pain or hurt because you have gone through a particularily tough fight. The great thing is you survived and won. Again, if I am way off base then I appologise in advance.

I can strongly confirm feelings of "amnesia" -- believe me. If there's one thing that you've said above that I can relate to, it's the fact that I "feel" as if I am in two worlds (or more). I am not saying I AM, but it certainly feels that way a lot of the time -- and even in OTHER places in "this" world (at the same time). Throughout every day, I constantly get flashes of things that I know have absolutely nothing to do with what's going on in this physical world (or in my personal life). I do honestly believe that sometimes I am actually, also somewhere else, doing something else. However, I can't see enough to describe things properly, so I don't go around trying to.

Anything I say (if I tried to explain) would come off as rather abstract and like a very, tall, fanciful story -- because I just can't explain it well. So all I do is try very hard to cut through the veil, when I see it. I believe that one of these days, even if not during this life, then after, I will understand what has been going on. Until then, I know I must have patience, and stick close with God.

I keep in prayer, and I do my best to be constructive. I thirst for people to relate with, so that I am not alone. But I get annoyed a lot of the time, because I think that many of those around me are just walking around like zombies -- letting the winds blow them from one situation in life to the next, but by the same token (contrary to what some around here might perceive), I am very loving and caring. I have a soft heart, but I can also be extremely "frank", otherwise people just don't get it.

I just want people to stop pandering to each other on search of the "warm and fuzzies" so that I have more people to relate to. I wont find them if I walk around forums saying: "oh yes, that's fantastic", (while I don't agree), "you're most assuredly enlightened - like me!", "You're special", "Am I special too?", "tell me I'm special. -- tell me again!", "Aaaaah", "music to my ears!", "say it again!"

Usually, if someone retaliates to something that I say, it's a sign to me that I've rocked their boat. My intention is not to make people grumpy and then sit back to giggle at them. My intention is to pull them out of their comfort zone so that they're more alert and sitting up -- because then I can have serious conversation with people, even if it is sometimes a bit annoyed because I disturbed their euphoric, but delusional, slumber.

I don't go around saying only things that I know most people will agree with; and I am not afraid to say something "KNOWING" that I will be in the minority. But if I don't be frank and say exactly what I mean, how will I find the people that also understand things as I see them? Nevertheless, I think all people should say "what they mean" -- instead of redesigning it so that more people will agree. That's "peeing in someone's pocket" to me.

I have a new profile comment today: "I'm not impressed by the slander you have been posting.". I can only assume that I've upset someone with one of my posts. However, I can only say: I am posting exactly what I believe. I think anyone with any amount of sincerity will see that I am not purposefully being vicious or mean. I am merely saying things that people STRONGLY disagree with. I am displaying disdain for movements which I have been affected by, and caused me to go off the beaten track. People are "associating themselves" with what I have said. It is really quite interesting for me to watch, actually. It shows how many people actually need to hear what I say -- because they're hearing it! And they're sitting up.

What I am getting from most people's complaints is: "How DARE you wake me up from my slumber and remove my hands from my eyes! I was in a HAPPY place, and you come over here annoying me with REALITY! You are ROTTEN! Mr ServantWarrior! I had JUST found a way to ignore any consequence to my actions and you come over interrogating me! Now it will take MONTHS for me to slip back into that delusion! ARGH!". My rhetorical response is something like: "Oh sorry, I was just trying to find out if you might be someone I can relate with -- because there's not many serious and genuine people that are willing to face problems and reality, in order to overcome ignorance".

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Originally Posted by Initiate

I ask you. how many times in your life have people just come out and said... "Thank you dear, your an angel"?

No one I know uses that terminology. I think it is something that the previous generation would say more often. But I get your point. Of course it has been said to me, among other compliments -- but then again, I think such a thing has been said to just about everyone. Everyone does something for others, here and there which causes those others to be thankful.

cloud9 · 12-14-2009, 04:54 AM

With all due respect Warrior Servant:
I've been following this thread since the beginning and honestly I can say that many times you transpire real frustration and anger which is understandable based on your experiences but I think sometimes you could feel attacked when somebody who has not had that kind of experience is trying to understand something that is really complicated to explain.
I don't post much but this time I'd like to suggest you research into Dolores Cannon's work, I know you don't like hypnosis but at least you could read her books with all the information she has obteined from people just like you and perhaps you could have a better idea about the bigger picture, what you have lived it's not uncommon, what is very rare is that the person can remember so much information in his awaken state.
In her last interview in Coast to Coast last month she describes the three waves of souls that have come to the planet in the last 50 years or so and your story fits pretty well with the second wave.
The only problem I see is that you already have very rigid ideas about some topics but perhaps knowing more about your experiences and your plan for this life would help you to feel better and understand what the purpose of it all really is.
YOU have a huge purpose in this incarnation, you agreed to it before coming, it's not knowing more what is making you afraid and angry because even though you remember things you don't remember everything that happens "out there". Being afraid makes you think that the experiences are more negative than they really are.
I know you possibly read this and discard it quickly but I'm talking to you from my heart and I'm just trying to help, you are very confused but please remember that there is help available, you are not alone, you are not the only one, you can find out very easily what this is all about and you definitely can live a much better life with full understanding and knowledge about what you are really doing here, you are a beautiful soul that volunteered to help humanity as many others and because of that I truly respect and love you.
I could talk more about some experiences you have described but it's not necessary. If you are interested, there' are some threads here about Mrs. Cannon or just go to youtube, with 2 or 3 10 min. videos you'll get an idea about her work and knowledge.
God bless you.

Gnosis5 · 12-15-2009, 07:38 AM

Your showing of compassion humbles me.

Gnosis

cloud9 · 12-15-2009, 04:50 PM

Thank you Gnosis, I think everybody has something important to say , I don't post much but I always read what people say here.
I dont agree with everything I read but I don't feel threatened by anybody elses's believes, each one of us has a part of the puzzle, when we share we are putting all the pieces together, little by little.

12-12-2009, 06:46 PM	#5
Jonah Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: Sacramento Ca Posts: 366	Re: Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers). I think alot of people can relate to you last statement.... Sometimes I get tired. But once i can accept the cards that i'm delt, i learn that the people around me (the ones I hold in contempt for being close minded) are the ones that i have to enlighten. And I can't do that with expectations. I can't do that with stand offish arguments over facts. I have to wait.... Until they open the door for me to walk through. It sux man.. but when the look of realization comes over there face.... it's worth it. People get to make choices. We have to let them. Through this process understanding is possible. But it's the window of opportunity that has to be manifested. ok i'm starting to preach ... good day to you my friends Last edited by Jonah; 12-12-2009 at 07:06 PM.

12-12-2009, 07:04 PM	#6
BROOK Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Posts: 3,117	Re: Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers). Well, I'm off to work now..so keep the good flow here, and if I can I will look in. This is a good thread, worth keeping up on. I will be back tonight to see how it progresses. Blessings Brook

12-13-2009, 12:08 AM	#8
Initiate Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: New Zealand Posts: 391	Re: Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers). Thankyou WarriorServant for sharing your experiences. My search for truth sounds a lot like yours. I will offer insight if something rings a bell and says I need to share. I have never seen what you have seen. I have woken up and found scratches that I can't explain how they got there. I believe I will never know all the answers but it doesn't stop me searching. I have asked God to lead me to the truth and slowly but surely I have been lead through progressive revelation. If I say something that just doesn't ring true with you then I am happy to have this pointed out. I post on information that I have been researching and is relevant. As I believe the search has led me too it for a reason. I believe that the "walk-in" topic is relevant to you in some way. My gut instinct, which often serves me in life, tells me that you are strongly associated with "the light". You are infact under attack because you so strongly associated with the light and you have protectors. You live in two worlds on an equal basis. You are in the physical and also the spiritual and are aware equally of both. Again, please don't take me wrong as I don't know how or why I am telling you this. I just do. The biggest problem you face is amnessia. You wake up sometimes in pain or hurt because you have gone through a particularily tough fight. The great thing is you survived and won. Again, if I am way off base then I appologise in advance. I ask you. how many times in your life have people just come out and said... "Thank you dear, your an angel"?

12-14-2009, 04:54 AM	#10
cloud9 Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: New York Posts: 107	Re: Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers). With all due respect Warrior Servant: I've been following this thread since the beginning and honestly I can say that many times you transpire real frustration and anger which is understandable based on your experiences but I think sometimes you could feel attacked when somebody who has not had that kind of experience is trying to understand something that is really complicated to explain. I don't post much but this time I'd like to suggest you research into Dolores Cannon's work, I know you don't like hypnosis but at least you could read her books with all the information she has obteined from people just like you and perhaps you could have a better idea about the bigger picture, what you have lived it's not uncommon, what is very rare is that the person can remember so much information in his awaken state. In her last interview in Coast to Coast last month she describes the three waves of souls that have come to the planet in the last 50 years or so and your story fits pretty well with the second wave. The only problem I see is that you already have very rigid ideas about some topics but perhaps knowing more about your experiences and your plan for this life would help you to feel better and understand what the purpose of it all really is. YOU have a huge purpose in this incarnation, you agreed to it before coming, it's not knowing more what is making you afraid and angry because even though you remember things you don't remember everything that happens "out there". Being afraid makes you think that the experiences are more negative than they really are. I know you possibly read this and discard it quickly but I'm talking to you from my heart and I'm just trying to help, you are very confused but please remember that there is help available, you are not alone, you are not the only one, you can find out very easily what this is all about and you definitely can live a much better life with full understanding and knowledge about what you are really doing here, you are a beautiful soul that volunteered to help humanity as many others and because of that I truly respect and love you. I could talk more about some experiences you have described but it's not necessary. If you are interested, there' are some threads here about Mrs. Cannon or just go to youtube, with 2 or 3 10 min. videos you'll get an idea about her work and knowledge. God bless you.

12-15-2009, 07:38 AM	#11
Gnosis5 Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: Canada Posts: 1,659	Re: Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers). Your showing of compassion humbles me. Gnosis

12-15-2009, 04:50 PM	#12
cloud9 Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: New York Posts: 107	Re: Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers). Thank you Gnosis, I think everybody has something important to say , I don't post much but I always read what people say here. I dont agree with everything I read but I don't feel threatened by anybody elses's believes, each one of us has a part of the puzzle, when we share we are putting all the pieces together, little by little.