Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers). - Page 4

Gevaudan · 12-12-2009, 05:33 PM

Warriorservant,

Have you experienced your surroundings being filled with bluish-green and orange orbs of light? Sleep paralysis?

I ask because my experiences with these things are almost always preceded by one or both of the aforementioned characteristics. After experiencing the orbs and/or paralysis, I often 'come to' hours later with no idea of what happened to me and have trouble speaking for a while. When I regain total consciousness, I seem to have a lot of knowledge that wasn't there before.

kriya · 12-12-2009, 05:34 PM

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Originally Posted by WarriorServant

Thank you! *cries tears of joy* A person who responded to the TOPIC! YAAAAAY!!!!!!!!

I can recall MUCH of my experiences. I could write a book. I wont begin to type everything "now" because I would never be able to stop. But do you have any questions in particular?

Can you tell us about the ETs you have met and what information they have given you?

100thmonkey · 12-12-2009, 05:39 PM

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Originally Posted by WarriorServant

that you're going to prove what I am 'REAAALLY" heeeere fooooor.. Ooooooh! I better be careful you might "catch me out!"

I wasn't trying to get you to say anything except what you really believe.
I'm not here to mock you. I never have mocked you. I don't want to be responsible for creating a negative environment on this forum - and I don't want to be made out as if I am.

Yes, all I wanted to know is where you're really coming from. I could sense it, but you seemed to be denying it, so I needed to ask more explicitly.

I think you're avoidance of the issue is what makes it seem to you that you get badgered so intensely on forums like this.

I'm not going to push you any further on it, please continue your story.
Don't give up your own thread.

As I also said before, I am genuinely interested to hear your personal experiences...

WarriorServant · 12-12-2009, 05:40 PM

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Originally Posted by Gevaudan

Warriorservant,

Have you experienced your surroundings being filled with bluish-green and orange orbs of light? Sleep paralysis?

I ask because my experiences with these things are almost always preceded by one or both of the aforementioned characteristics. After experiencing the orbs and/or paralysis, I often 'come to' hours later with no idea of what happened to me and have trouble speaking for a while. When I regain total consciousness, I seem to have a lot of knowledge that wasn't there before.

Yes, I do see blue light. It is a blue light that has no source. Everything is just lit up blue. Once the blue light starts, I am always immediately paralyzed and then wake up again later (ie: in the morning) with absolutely no recollection of anything, except what happened just before I blacked out.

The blue lights are associated with the inability to move, along with deep and VERY LOW throbbing humming. The sound is SO low, I can feel it reverberate through my whole body. Also, I hear a high pitched oscillating frequency.

To say that I do not recall "ANYTHING" once I've blacked out is subject to the reality that I have HUNDREDS of instances (flashbacks?) in my head of being aboard various craft -- and also I have literally THOUSANDS of images in my head regarding everything from destruction of the earth to being on different planets, in space, different times, you name it.

It's all quite trippy really, but i know one thing: I AM NOT TRIPPING!

WarriorServant · 12-12-2009, 05:41 PM

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Originally Posted by 100thmonkey

I wasn't trying to get you to say anything except what you really believe.
I'm not here to mock you. I never have mocked you. I don't want to be responsible for creating a negative environment on this forum - and I don't want to be made out as if I am.

Yes, all I wanted to know is where you're really coming from. I could sense it, but you seemed to be denying it, so I needed to ask more explicitly.

I think you're avoidance of the issue is what makes it seem to you that you get badgered so intensely on forums like this.

I'm not going to push you any further on it, please continue your story.
Don't give up your own thread.

As I also said before, I am genuinely interested to hear your personal experiences...

Then send me a PM - and stop posting things that have NOTHING to do with the thread. Didn't you read all the disclaimers all over the joint?

Sideshow Shaman · 12-12-2009, 05:46 PM

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Originally Posted by WarriorServant

The only way to the Father is through Jesus Christ. Watering down that process to "just contact source" deletes Jesus from the process. We cannot communicate with "source" / God if we do not acknowledge Jesus and believe that Jesus came to earth and died for us.

First, I thank you for posting such in depth, personal information. This is the main reason I come to Avalon, to hear from others about their own experiences. It takes a lot of effort to start & stay with a thread as you have.

If the above quoted material is rephrased in personal terms, I believe much of the 'arguing' will disappear. For example, "The only way for me to reach the Father is through Jesus Christ..." or "I cannot communicate with "source" / God if I do not acknowledge Jesus and believe that Jesus came to earth and died for me."
Most of your writing is in terms of your experience but when coming to the "Jesus" theme, it suddenly turns to absolutes. I suggest this is what people are reacting too.

Welcome to Avalon, I look forward to reading more about your experiences as you are able to share them.

WarriorServant · 12-12-2009, 05:50 PM

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Originally Posted by Sideshow Shaman

First, I thank you for posting such in depth, personal information. This is the main reason I come to Avalon, to hear from others about their own experiences. It takes a lot of effort to start & stay with a thread as you have.

If the above quoted material is rephrased in personal terms, I believe much of the 'arguing' will disappear. For example, "The only way for me to reach the Father is through Jesus Christ..." or "I cannot communicate with "source" / God if I do not acknowledge Jesus and believe that Jesus came to earth and died for me."
Most of your writing is in terms of your experience but when coming to the "Jesus" theme, it suddenly turns to absolutes. I suggest this is what people are reacting too.

Welcome to Avalon, I look forward to reading more about your experiences as you are able to share them.

I will say what I believe -- and I believe that ALL people SHOULD be able to. People can take it on board, or they can reject it. I am not going to chase anyone up and down any streets if they reject what I say. I would appreciate it if you had any comment on the initial post, concerning my experiences -- because that's what the thread is about. If I mention anything about WHY I believe something, you are free to accept it or reject it, but I don't want the whole thread to take off on a tangent.

BROOK · 12-12-2009, 05:51 PM

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To say that I do not recall "ANYTHING" once I've blacked out is subject to the reality that I have HUNDREDS of instances (flashbacks?) in my head of being aboard various craft -- and also I have literally THOUSANDS of images in my head regarding everything from destruction of the earth to being on different planets, in space, different times, you name it.

Are they coming in Pixel form images? Because that is how mine started, before I was able to get clear images.

Gevaudan · 12-12-2009, 05:52 PM

I know exactly what you're talking about. This has happened to me most of my life. To this day when I begin to feel/hear the humming sound I think, "Oh God...Not again..."

Even though most of my personal experiences have been positive, I have had some that were not so pleasant. Thus, when I begin to feel the 'presence' in the room with me, I pull the covers over my head like a child hiding from the boogie man.

I have had images of being aboard a craft, but have never seen an entity that looks anything but human. In many cases I am in a room with many other people and we are training for something. On one particular occasion, I was holding hands with three other people around the apex of a pyramid (our backs to the pyramid with our arms outstretched above our heads) and were chanting a specific frequency.

Trippy indeed....

WarriorServant · 12-12-2009, 05:53 PM

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Originally Posted by BROOK

Are they coming in Pixel form images? Because that is how mine started, before I was able to get clear images.

What do you mean by pixel form images?

Everything I have in my head is as clear as day, as if I were actually there -- watching it.

BROOK · 12-12-2009, 05:55 PM

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Originally Posted by WarriorServant

What do you mean by pixel form images?

Everything I have in my head is as clear as day, as if I were actually there -- watching it.

I thought you were describing images flashing in and out...like in block form...pixels....I know...don't laugh..I'm strange anyway...haha
But that is how mine started.

WarriorServant · 12-12-2009, 06:01 PM

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Originally Posted by Gevaudan

I know exactly what you're talking about. This has happened to me most of my life. To this day when I begin to feel/hear the humming sound I think, "Oh God...Not again..."

Even though most of my personal experiences have been positive, I have had some that were not so pleasant. Thus, when I begin to feel the 'presence' in the room with me, I pull the covers over my head like a child hiding from the boogie man.

I have had images of being aboard a craft, but have never seen an entity that looks anything but human. In many cases I am in a room with many other people and we are training for something. On one particular occasion, I was holding hands with three other people around the apex of a pyramid (our backs to the pyramid with our arms outstretched above our heads) and were chanting a specific frequency.

Trippy indeed....

To be perfectly honest, most of the images I have in my head are devoid of any "entity" at all -- human or otherwise. However, I do have images in my head (memories?) of more that one type of creature. I have also seen human looking beings also. It is very intriguing to me, because I CANNOT {{{STAND}}} the New Age Movement (because I was once a reader of it's stupid philosophies) and they say a lot about "Pleiadeans" and some dude named "Ashar".

What bothers me is that when I look at the "depictions" and "images" online, of what a Pleiadean is meant to look like (including the "blue" attire, that they're often depicted as wearing), I REMEMBER them! BUT (and I REALLY "hate" to give all these people any credibility), my experience with those "beings" was one of the very few "positive" feelings I've had. See, I know that evil can "pretend" to be good. I am NOT (in any way, shape or form) second guessing that I MET them. What I am second guessing is whether or not the love I felt was real. I am NOT gullible and I am NOT a person to simply trust something becomes it "seems" right. But, I guess one could say (if they believed such a thing) that I have met Pleiadeans.

WarriorServant · 12-12-2009, 06:03 PM

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Originally Posted by BROOK

I thought you were describing images flashing in and out...like in block form...pixels....I know...don't laugh..I'm strange anyway...haha
But that is how mine started.

I can close my eyes now and see any of these images in my head. Almost like a photographic memory. It is not mere "images". What I see is more akin to some sort of "portal" or "looking glass" that's built into my head. Once I have seen something in the past, I can close my eyes and see it again. I know that what I am saying just sound ridiculous and that I could very well be making up tall stories -- but what I am saying is true, the way I see it.

BROOK · 12-12-2009, 06:06 PM

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Originally Posted by WarriorServant

To be perfectly honest, most of the images I have in my head are devoid of any "entity" at all -- human or otherwise. However, I do have images in my head (memories?) of more that one type of creature. I have also seen human looking beings also. It is very intriguing to me, because I CANNOT {{{STAND}}} the New Age Movement (because I was once a reader of it's stupid philosophies) and they say a lot about "Pleiadeans" and some dude named "Ashar".

What bothers me is that when I look at the "depictions" and "images" online, of what a Pleiadean is meant to look like (including the "blue" attire, that they're often depicted as wearing), I REMEMBER them! BUT (and I REALLY "hate" to give all these people any credibility), my experience with those "beings" was one of the very few "positive" feelings I've had. See, I know that evil can "pretend" to be good. I am NOT (in any way, shape or form) second guessing that I MET them. What I am second guessing is whether or not the love I felt was real. I am NOT gullible and I am NOT a person to simp[ly trust something becomes it "seems" right. But, I guess one could say (if they believed such a thing) that I have met Pleiadeans.

It sounds like your getting validation in these images. I don't buy into all they say either...but it can still be a validation

BROOK · 12-12-2009, 06:08 PM

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Originally Posted by WarriorServant

I can close my eyes now and see any of these images in my head. Almost like a photographic memory. It is not mere "images". What I see is more akin to some sort of "portal" or "looking glass" that's built into my head. Once I have seen something in the past, I can close my eyes and see it again. I know that what I am saying just sound ridiculous and that I could very well be making up tall stories -- but what I am saying is true, the way I see it.

Well...it sounds to me like you have a 'gift'..and that is why you are under attack! Just my observation...my opinion only.

Bilko · 12-12-2009, 06:11 PM

Hi Warriorservant

What you have been describing sounds very familiar to me. I am a long time lurker here but decided to join recently.
Please take a look at this thread from my home from home. its not by me as i was led to believe that vast areas of the astral have been cleared now so people can project without harm or fear.

http://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/sh...ighlight=bilko

Anyway, i hope the thread is of some use to you. It is entitled Astral combat by a poster that seems to be displaying a lot of the symptoms of injury etc as you.

i projected the first time about a year ago and took a nose dive into my bedroom carpet, not knowing how to stop lol. My body started holding it's breath as if i was going under water so i was brought back.
Then i was startled/semi attacked on another projection by a nasty entity and haven't tried again since.

Past/future ( yes future ) life regression sounds like it might be beneficial. i don't know where you are based but i can recommend the college of psychic studies in London from first hand experience. ( won't post link, need to read the rules lol ). They have several practitioners there that i think might be able to help in many areas.

I'll leave it there for now, good luck.
Ian

WarriorServant · 12-12-2009, 06:12 PM

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Originally Posted by BROOK

It sounds like your getting validation in these images. I don't buy into all they say either...but it can still be a validation

I think the reason I am so skeptical of any non human being is because (and believe me, I really understated the abuse I've suffered), I have been through some VERY tough "experiences" -- experiences that changed my whole life and view and reality.

I don't simply trust someone / something because it sows up and made me feel all warm and fuzzy. I also take a LOT of other things into account. I am not simple minded - believe me.

I take into account that maybe what I had contact with was evil pretending to be good. I take into account that Pleiadeans might be ALL demonic (period) and that demons use that form to create a world perception that they are "the good guys". I take into account that they might very well have been "Angels", because they were human looking and I know God has sent angels to the Earth before.

See, I am or one to look at a few images online and declare: "HEY! It's THEM! I know them! They are the Pleideans!" -- how do I know I have not been fooled? I don;t know anything -- really. All I know is what I experienced. What they were / who they were / where they came from / why the visited me .. I'm still none the wiser.

WarriorServant · 12-12-2009, 06:15 PM

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Originally Posted by BROOK

Well...it sounds to me like you have a 'gift'..and that is why you are under attack! Just my observation...my opinion only.

While it is tempting to say: "yes I have a gift" and that's why I have been attacked all my life! ..I cannot say anything for sure. I have my suspicions, and I tell you (with NO word of a lie), I AM different than most people. But how? Why? .. I don;t know. I just don't know. I wish I did. But I just don't and it's not going to help matters to pretend to.

BROOK · 12-12-2009, 06:18 PM

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Originally Posted by WarriorServant

While it is tempting to say: "yes I have a gift" and that's why I have been attacked all my life! ..I cannot say anything for sure. I have my suspicions, and I tell you (with NO word of a lie), I AM different than most people. But how? Why? .. I don;t know. I just don't know. I wish I did. But I just don't and it's not going to help matters to pretend to.

I would wager, they have more to be afraid of you for then anything else...that is why they are after you....control and confuse tactic...to keep you under control. And it seems you are fighting it. Just my observation again from what you have said so far. It seems they attack people of high energy, and talent, keep that in mind

WarriorServant · 12-12-2009, 06:32 PM

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Originally Posted by BROOK

I would wager, they have more to be afraid of you for then anything else...that is why they are after you....control and confuse tactic...to keep you under control. And it seems you are fighting it. Just my observation again from what you have said so far. It seems they attack people of high energy, and talent, keep that in mind

Well, I have most certainly been attacked. I could also go on about how I have been attacked in life (but that would just sound like a hard luck story, and I'm off it). And the confusion? Well, BRAVO! They've done a FANTASTIC job! 5 stars! I am WELL confused. But, I still refuse to latch onto conclusions -- because I know that if I do, I will be restricted. I KNOW there's some important stuff that I know, but I can't quite access it. I get flashes and images, and I KNOW there's something there but I can't quite see it. I KNOW there's something "about me", "around me", and sometimes I get a sniff.. but I lose it a second later.

You know what I wish? And I have prayed for? I want some wisdom / education from someone that is not human. I have learned all I can from humans. I was a child and I respected adults and I asked a MILLION questions. I remember. My parents told me to shut up! Stop asking so many questions. Then I went to school and I was SHATTERED! I COULDN'T STAND that place! I got sent out of the class on a daily basis. By the time I got to highschool, I just never went. For that reason, I have little to no formal education besides primary school and a little bit of highscool.

I was upset because there was no one left to look up to. I came to the realization that everyone had limitations. No one had answers. I grew up so fast and understood everything so early -- and then there was no one. No one to explain the questions that I had -- and they were endless. By the time I hit my teens I looked at most adults like they were just stupid. That's why I never listened in school. I wanted MORE!

I still want more. I am in my 30's now and I am STILL asking questions. I am STILL learning. I am STILL running at a million miles an hour and in my head I am {{{{SCREAMING}}}} .. "IS THIS ALL THERE IS???"...

If I have ANY talent. If I have ANY gift. It is totally wasted in this putrid, horrid, horrible place where no one gives a flying rats **** about anything that isn't happening in their own little bubble. I feel deserted on an island -- and to be quite frank, I'm "NOT IMPRESSED"!

BROOK · 12-12-2009, 06:45 PM

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Originally Posted by WarriorServant

Well, I have most certainly been attacked. I could also go on about how I have been attacked in life (but that would just sound like a hard luck story, and I'm off it). And the confusion? Well, BRAVO! They've done a FANTASTIC job! 5 stars! I am WELL confused. But, I still refuse to latch onto conclusions -- because I know that if I do, I will be restricted. I KNOW there's some important stuff that I know, but I can't quite access it. I get flashes and images, and I KNOW there's something there but I can't quite see it. I KNOW there's something "about me", "around me", and sometimes I get a sniff.. but I lose it a second later.

You know what I wish? And I have prayed for? I want some wisdom / education from someone that is not human. I have learned all I can from humans. I was a child and I respected adults and I asked a MILLION questions. I remember. My parents told me to shut up! Stop asking so many questions. Then I went to school and I was SHATTERED! I COULDN'T STAND that place! I got sent out of the class on a daily basis. By the time I got to highschool, I just never went. For that reason, I have little to no formal education besides primary school and a little bit of highscool.

I was upset because there was no one left to look up to. I came to the realization that everyone had limitations. No one had answers. I grew up so fast and understood everything so early -- and then there was no one. No one to explain the questions that I had -- and they were endless. By the time I hit my teens I looked at most adults like they were just stupid. That's why I never listened in school. I wanted MORE!

I still want more. I am in my 30's now and I am STILL asking questions. I am STILL learning. I am STILL running at a million miles an hour and in my head I am {{{{SCREAMING}}}} .. "IS THIS ALL THERE IS???"...

If I have ANY talent. If I have ANY gift. It is totally wasted in this putrid, horrid, horrible place where no one gives a flying rats **** about anything that isn't happening in their own little bubble. I feel deserted on an island -- and to be quite frank, I'm "NOT IMPRESSED"!

There is not a whole lot you've said here..that I do not agree to, and have had experience in many of these areas. Especially the part about something being right at your finger tips...but can't quite reach. It's frustrating indeed. In fact that is the area I happen to be working on on a personal level.
Trust me when I say this. They are after you for your talent and what you can bring to the table. And weather you believe it or not, you probably have it within you to control them at some level. Have you thought about it in those terms?

Jonah · 12-12-2009, 06:46 PM

I think alot of people can relate to you last statement....

Sometimes I get tired. But once i can accept the cards that i'm delt, i learn that the people around me (the ones I hold in contempt for being close minded) are the ones that i have to enlighten.

And I can't do that with expectations. I can't do that with stand offish arguments over facts.

I have to wait.... Until they open the door for me to walk through.

It sux man.. but when the look of realization comes over there face.... it's worth it. People get to make choices. We have to let them. Through this process understanding is possible. But it's the window of opportunity that has to be manifested. ok i'm starting to preach ... good day to you my friends

BROOK · 12-12-2009, 07:04 PM

Well, I'm off to work now..so keep the good flow here, and if I can I will look in. This is a good thread, worth keeping up on. I will be back tonight to see how it progresses.

Blessings
Brook

Northern Boy · 12-12-2009, 11:19 PM

WarriorServant said

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"IS THIS ALL THERE IS???

I have been asking myself this very question for 34 yrs and the answer has never been provided to me

Initiate · 12-13-2009, 12:08 AM

Thankyou WarriorServant for sharing your experiences.

My search for truth sounds a lot like yours. I will offer insight if something rings a bell and says I need to share. I have never seen what you have seen. I have woken up and found scratches that I can't explain how they got there. I believe I will never know all the answers but it doesn't stop me searching. I have asked God to lead me to the truth and slowly but surely I have been lead through progressive revelation. If I say something that just doesn't ring true with you then I am happy to have this pointed out. I post on information that I have been researching and is relevant. As I believe the search has led me too it for a reason. I believe that the "walk-in" topic is relevant to you in some way.

My gut instinct, which often serves me in life, tells me that you are strongly associated with "the light". You are infact under attack because you so strongly associated with the light and you have protectors. You live in two worlds on an equal basis. You are in the physical and also the spiritual and are aware equally of both. Again, please don't take me wrong as I don't know how or why I am telling you this. I just do. The biggest problem you face is amnessia. You wake up sometimes in pain or hurt because you have gone through a particularily tough fight. The great thing is you survived and won. Again, if I am way off base then I appologise in advance.

I ask you. how many times in your life have people just come out and said... "Thank you dear, your an angel"?

12-12-2009, 05:33 PM	#76
Gevaudan Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Charleston, SC Posts: 75	Re: Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers). Warriorservant, Have you experienced your surroundings being filled with bluish-green and orange orbs of light? Sleep paralysis? I ask because my experiences with these things are almost always preceded by one or both of the aforementioned characteristics. After experiencing the orbs and/or paralysis, I often 'come to' hours later with no idea of what happened to me and have trouble speaking for a while. When I regain total consciousness, I seem to have a lot of knowledge that wasn't there before.

12-12-2009, 05:52 PM	#84
Gevaudan Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: Charleston, SC Posts: 75	Re: Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers). I know exactly what you're talking about. This has happened to me most of my life. To this day when I begin to feel/hear the humming sound I think, "Oh God...Not again..." Even though most of my personal experiences have been positive, I have had some that were not so pleasant. Thus, when I begin to feel the 'presence' in the room with me, I pull the covers over my head like a child hiding from the boogie man. I have had images of being aboard a craft, but have never seen an entity that looks anything but human. In many cases I am in a room with many other people and we are training for something. On one particular occasion, I was holding hands with three other people around the apex of a pyramid (our backs to the pyramid with our arms outstretched above our heads) and were chanting a specific frequency. Trippy indeed....

12-12-2009, 06:11 PM	#91
Bilko Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: London South East Posts: 61	Re: Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers). Hi Warriorservant What you have been describing sounds very familiar to me. I am a long time lurker here but decided to join recently. Please take a look at this thread from my home from home. its not by me as i was led to believe that vast areas of the astral have been cleared now so people can project without harm or fear. http://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/sh...ighlight=bilko Anyway, i hope the thread is of some use to you. It is entitled Astral combat by a poster that seems to be displaying a lot of the symptoms of injury etc as you. i projected the first time about a year ago and took a nose dive into my bedroom carpet, not knowing how to stop lol. My body started holding it's breath as if i was going under water so i was brought back. Then i was startled/semi attacked on another projection by a nasty entity and haven't tried again since. Past/future ( yes future ) life regression sounds like it might be beneficial. i don't know where you are based but i can recommend the college of psychic studies in London from first hand experience. ( won't post link, need to read the rules lol ). They have several practitioners there that i think might be able to help in many areas. I'll leave it there for now, good luck. Ian

12-12-2009, 06:46 PM	#97
Jonah Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: Sacramento Ca Posts: 366	Re: Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers). I think alot of people can relate to you last statement.... Sometimes I get tired. But once i can accept the cards that i'm delt, i learn that the people around me (the ones I hold in contempt for being close minded) are the ones that i have to enlighten. And I can't do that with expectations. I can't do that with stand offish arguments over facts. I have to wait.... Until they open the door for me to walk through. It sux man.. but when the look of realization comes over there face.... it's worth it. People get to make choices. We have to let them. Through this process understanding is possible. But it's the window of opportunity that has to be manifested. ok i'm starting to preach ... good day to you my friends Last edited by Jonah; 12-12-2009 at 07:06 PM.

12-12-2009, 07:04 PM	#98
BROOK Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Posts: 3,117	Re: Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers). Well, I'm off to work now..so keep the good flow here, and if I can I will look in. This is a good thread, worth keeping up on. I will be back tonight to see how it progresses. Blessings Brook

12-13-2009, 12:08 AM	#100
Initiate Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: New Zealand Posts: 391	Re: Info about me (sorry for all the disclaimers). Thankyou WarriorServant for sharing your experiences. My search for truth sounds a lot like yours. I will offer insight if something rings a bell and says I need to share. I have never seen what you have seen. I have woken up and found scratches that I can't explain how they got there. I believe I will never know all the answers but it doesn't stop me searching. I have asked God to lead me to the truth and slowly but surely I have been lead through progressive revelation. If I say something that just doesn't ring true with you then I am happy to have this pointed out. I post on information that I have been researching and is relevant. As I believe the search has led me too it for a reason. I believe that the "walk-in" topic is relevant to you in some way. My gut instinct, which often serves me in life, tells me that you are strongly associated with "the light". You are infact under attack because you so strongly associated with the light and you have protectors. You live in two worlds on an equal basis. You are in the physical and also the spiritual and are aware equally of both. Again, please don't take me wrong as I don't know how or why I am telling you this. I just do. The biggest problem you face is amnessia. You wake up sometimes in pain or hurt because you have gone through a particularily tough fight. The great thing is you survived and won. Again, if I am way off base then I appologise in advance. I ask you. how many times in your life have people just come out and said... "Thank you dear, your an angel"?