call for indigo children

[RubyTuesday]

Okay, I have an odd question. Kind of personal I guess. I have a guide, male, who hardly ever speaks and when he does it's just of the yes, no, don't do that variety. I've recently found that he is here to protect me. Not only that, but I'm now getting the feeling (via a close friend who does my aura readings and my own card readings) that his protection isn't just to keep me physically protected- that's minor. It's spiritual protection. He blocks me, guys! I'm very high energy, typical indigo really but since I've been on this path again and have been so determined to figure things out (I feel under pressure to do so as I'm sure many of you do right now) he seems to be intentionally hindering me.

For example, I've been exploring past lives lately and decided the other day that since I'm getting adept at "opening the door" that if I changed the door from past to future would I see future events? Everytime I try and reach for the door I instantly fall asleep. When I'm grounded myself, I can feel my energy being blocked all of a sudden. I was flowing fine just weeks ago and nothing has really changed in a negative way. It's like he's telling me "no more, you've gone high enough" in everything I'm doing. Wouldn't this be a violation of my will? Or do you think he's here because it's part of whatever deal I before this incarnation that he would come and prevent me from expanding "too much" right now? If so, wouldn't you think that timing is very important and then wonder why?

I'm about to go sit in a few and see if I can finally get him to dialogue w/me but I'm wondering if any of you have heard of such a thing or have any advice on how to deal with this.

Sorry if this is very confusing. I'm confused myself. I have no objection to any of you who can see having a peek and asking him a few questions if he'll respond. If you see something, please pm me.