alien agenda taking place proof is in my story and the infrastructure already built

mntruthseeker · 08-05-2009, 12:34 AM

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Originally Posted by timetotelltheworld

I will never find peace as long as they keep toying with my life and now death is seeming like a much better reality then the one they have carved out of my life....

The sad thing is that i can say with a clean conscience i have never hurt anyone ever ....these pieces of **** they wont back off, im staulked everyday and messed with at every turn the only peace i will find will be with my suicide i hope i find the strength to go soon

The same thoughts have run through my head, but that to me would be foolish. I used to think it was the cowards way out but not so sure anymore. I do want to be around because I do have family. It would not go well with them. They are clueless.

Are you in a safehouse as you mentioned in your pm? I would certainly hope that, that is still an option opened to you.

I will continue to send peace and love your way and maybe some of it may reach you. From the postings that I have seen, others are alos.

timetotelltheworld · 08-05-2009, 02:10 AM

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Originally Posted by mntruthseeker

The same thoughts have run through my head, but that to me would be foolish. I used to think it was the cowards way out but not so sure anymore. I do want to be around because I do have family. It would not go well with them. They are clueless.

Are you in a safehouse as you mentioned in your pm? I would certainly hope that, that is still an option opened to you.

I will continue to send peace and love your way and maybe some of it may reach you. From the postings that I have seen, others are alos.

no safe house just here...........in the library and in the street.

mntruthseeker · 08-05-2009, 02:15 AM

Kevin I hope you do not think that suicide is the answer. I know that instead if you feel hate,anger,fear etc.............those are all feelings of the ego not the soul

You have been through so much hell but its a lesson that you are at this time, that you said you could handle.......So you have to change your reality to get around this.

Please don't think that you will not find peace or you won't. Its there for you and if you go to some of the great threads right here or other places you will bring it to yourself. Check out Jesters thread on Love or Joys on angels, mudra's on we are one. There are so many here that will help you feel the peace and love you need right now.

I hope you do and start to feel better. dont give in to them as they will surely thrive on your fears.

god be with you

timetotelltheworld · 08-05-2009, 02:31 AM

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Originally Posted by mntruthseeker

Kevin I hope you do not think that suicide is the answer. I know that instead if you feel hate,anger,fear etc.............those are all feelings of the ego not the soul

You have been through so much hell but its a lesson that you are at this time, that you said you could handle.......So you have to change your reality to get around this.

Please don't think that you will not find peace or you won't. Its there for you and if you go to some of the great threads right here or other places you will bring it to yourself. Check out Jesters thread on Love or Joys on angels, mudra's on we are one. There are so many here that will help you feel the peace and love you need right now.

I hope you do and start to feel better. dont give in to them as they will surely thrive on your fears.

god be with you

not fear hate pure and unsatieated hate and im so damn tired of what they continue to do its harassment ,,,,,,,,,stalking...........taking away your constitutilonal rights over and over again..............murder............and its a whole lot of **** that directly effects all of us.........im so damn tired just warn out and i dont want to live this life anymore not a coward not just to damned hurt........

Karen · 08-05-2009, 03:27 AM

Please Kevin, I've warned you before privately - do not upset the forum members with this constant suicide talk.

Counselors and other helper occupations are sworn to keep anything you say confidential, except when there is a threat to hurt yourself or others, then they are mandated to call the proper authorities.

Perhaps a few people who care can move to a private conversation with you about it. I had this happen on another list where one member periodically got everyone all concerned with the suicide talk and she kept the people who cared about her on a permanent roller coaster ride. I cannot allow this to happen here. And we finally did put an end to it there.

People have so many questions that you have not answered. There is so much you have not yet revealed. Your story is one of the worst I have ever heard and I feel for you and understand the deep pain. And I know from our private conversations - that the typical crisis type help agencies are not an option for you and you are truly in a trap with no way out.

How about you distract yourself from your misery by writing more about your story?

timetotelltheworld · 08-05-2009, 06:54 PM

I can appreciate what your saying Karen about putting my feelings here could cause people to be upset especially in regards to suicide but one of the bigest pieces of my story is the fact that we are being replaced and yesterday i recieved a note from a friend here in San Francisco someone who has had my back for years the note said that i was seen in a shelter here in San Francisco a shelter called MSC south, seen entering the shelter seen staying there,,,,,the problem is that I HAVE NOT BEEN THERE .........AT ALL SINCE I GOT BACK TO SAN FRANCISCO i was seen staying there meanwhile im staying in doorways and in the park anywhere,,,,,while

THE S.O.B. MY DOUBLE IS HERE AND KNOWING THAT THERE IS AN ALIEN AGENDA ,,,,knowing that i have a doppleganger a double exactly like me in everyway and he's here to totally screw up my life ............i dont know what else to do.........all i can say is this, everything in my story is true and effects all of us and i beat my head into the wall each and every day trying to bring it out in the open and i know that all they want to do is destroy my life when i have done nothing to hurt anyone it kills it hurts so bad and i cant find a way to let go of the resentments and anger and frustration and fear and anxiety.........all i want is peace......I HATE IT HERE and i HATE THEM I HATE THEM SO MUCH....Why does this life have to be so damn painful.........they took everything from me and i am not the only one please please please wake up and see it......for all those in doubt just look at everything......look at all of it you will see it too if you get out of the denial....karen i know you and many others see it......but for all the non believers if you love your family and friends you will post this story everywhere put it up everywhere you can before its to late....

again my double is here hes here......and why because they are incredibly sadistic,,,,evil and want us gone..........i will say it again my double is here in San Francisco.....and i can only imagine what he is doing to my life.......
who do you go to when you can prove all of it.........the news already controled by them...........govt.....same............ general public they cant accept it and if they could they wouldnt be able to sleep so i bring it here as well as many other places but it seems to only cause more pain and problems.......
all i want is peace and i want it now........they destroyed my life no getting it back they killed off my family and they have an agenda to destroy us......they can become us and its all true.....
please for the non believers as well as the believers out there please look and see it then put my story everywhere..........
too many of us live in fear too many of us wont take the inititive to try and tell they're stories and experiences too many of us hide and dont tell they re experiences....they are afraid of being laughed up or locked up.........too many of us would rather stick our heads in the sand.........bury our information and not share it with anyone.........too many of us wont stand up for what they know is happening .........too many of us would rather live in our own fear then to try and disclose the truth........
like i said my double is here in San Francisco not far from me and i can only imagine what hes doing to my life.
sincerely, Kevin Rush

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Originally Posted by Karen

Please Kevin, I've warned you before privately - do not upset the forum members with this constant suicide talk.

Counselors and other helper occupations are sworn to keep anything you say confidential, except when there is a threat to hurt yourself or others, then they are mandated to call the proper authorities.

Perhaps a few people who care can move to a private conversation with you about it. I had this happen on another list where one member periodically got everyone all concerned with the suicide talk and she kept the people who cared about her on a permanent roller coaster ride. I cannot allow this to happen here. And we finally did put an end to it there.

People have so many questions that you have not answered. There is so much you have not yet revealed. Your story is one of the worst I have ever heard and I feel for you and understand the deep pain. And I know from our private conversations - that the typical crisis type help agencies are not an option for you and you are truly in a trap with no way out.

How about you distract yourself from your misery by writing more about your story?

burgundia · 08-05-2009, 07:19 PM

Timmy, stop banging the head against the wall...I got a headache by just looking at you....

mntruthseeker · 08-05-2009, 04:29 AM

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Originally Posted by timetotelltheworld

not fear hate pure and unsatieated hate and im so damn tired of what they continue to do its harassment ,,,,,,,,,stalking...........taking away your constitutilonal rights over and over again..............murder............and its a whole lot of **** that directly effects all of us.........im so damn tired just warn out and i dont want to live this life anymore not a coward not just to damned hurt........

I feel your pain and I cant say I understand, because I don't.

Are you staying with anybody at this time? You said you were earlier and I am hoping you do have someone with you.

ok, I am sending pm

take care

08-05-2009, 02:15 AM	#3
mntruthseeker Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: Minnesota Posts: 2,482	Re: alien agenda taking place proof is in my story and the infrastructure already bui Kevin I hope you do not think that suicide is the answer. I know that instead if you feel hate,anger,fear etc.............those are all feelings of the ego not the soul You have been through so much hell but its a lesson that you are at this time, that you said you could handle.......So you have to change your reality to get around this. Please don't think that you will not find peace or you won't. Its there for you and if you go to some of the great threads right here or other places you will bring it to yourself. Check out Jesters thread on Love or Joys on angels, mudra's on we are one. There are so many here that will help you feel the peace and love you need right now. I hope you do and start to feel better. dont give in to them as they will surely thrive on your fears. god be with you

08-05-2009, 03:27 AM	#5
Karen Project Avalon Organizer Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: NE Oregon boondocks, USA Posts: 1,767	Re: alien agenda taking place proof is in my story and the infrastructure already bui Please Kevin, I've warned you before privately - do not upset the forum members with this constant suicide talk. Counselors and other helper occupations are sworn to keep anything you say confidential, except when there is a threat to hurt yourself or others, then they are mandated to call the proper authorities. Perhaps a few people who care can move to a private conversation with you about it. I had this happen on another list where one member periodically got everyone all concerned with the suicide talk and she kept the people who cared about her on a permanent roller coaster ride. I cannot allow this to happen here. And we finally did put an end to it there. People have so many questions that you have not answered. There is so much you have not yet revealed. Your story is one of the worst I have ever heard and I feel for you and understand the deep pain. And I know from our private conversations - that the typical crisis type help agencies are not an option for you and you are truly in a trap with no way out. How about you distract yourself from your misery by writing more about your story?

08-05-2009, 07:19 PM	#7
burgundia Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: Poland Posts: 3,442	Re: alien agenda taking place proof is in my story and the infrastructure already bui Timmy, stop banging the head against the wall...I got a headache by just looking at you....