[yiolas]

Originally Posted by gita

Lets play the ‘WHAT IF’ game – just for a little while.

Lately, now and then, I suddenly come over with a feeling of dredge and it’s pure dredge. And I wonder;

1. ‘what if’ my friends and family are correct and I’m a bit out there?

2. ‘what if’ I’ve driven most of my friends away for no reason?

3. ‘what if’ I’ve become so detached from ‘reality’ that there’s no going back?

4. ‘what if’ nothing is going to happen and I’m stuck in a ‘prison’ until my
body dies?

5. ‘what if’ I’ve been filling my child’s head with nonsense and she actually thinks her mum is mad?

6. ‘what if’ I’ve missed the opportunities to build a more conservative and ‘better’ life for myself and my family?

7. ‘what if’ the world stays as it is and the powerful become more powerful and the cruelty of humans, animals and Mother Earth just continues for another millennia? For I just cannot live in such a world no longer.

But then I have to shake myself back to the reality I created for myself based on decades of research and innate knowings I had as a child.

I am not prepared for a world that is going to continue as it is... and so I wonder with dredge ‘what if?’

Welcome to our family here a Avalon Gita !
I just want to tell you that once you have woken up THERE IS NO GOING BACK .

Once you've caught a glimpse of what life is really about, you can not go back to the zombie like existance that you had before your awakening.
Once you play by your own rules, you can not go back and play by 'their' rules ever again.

I've had the same thoughts that you expressed and I've realized that having that normal 'mind controled' existance with the planned careers and life might give you more material things now and more acceptance by society in general.

It might be safer now in the short term, but it comes with a price. The price is that you don't get to know what you are truly capable of .
You don't get to meet and/or be your true higher self and experience the majesty of your true being. My family thinks I'm a bit crazy as well.
I've lost a lot of my friends as well these past couple of years and the reason is that we don't resonate on the same vibratory freguency any more .

Hopefully, I will manifest into my life new friends with whom I can explore the wonders of the 4th and 5th dimensions with. How cool will that be. It can't hurt if we continue to spread love and understanding and who cares if they think that we are little bit wacky ? That's the price we pay for being for-runners of this enlightenment movement.

What ever happens we will always have our friends here at Project Avalon.