Wish you had taken the blue pill?

[lotusflower]

Thanks.. I appreciate it

[Connecting with Sauce]

Great I feel a bit better knowing I'm not the only one feeling like this!
I hasten to add I'm not usually like this but I have been worried about the financial situation about to implode in the world an making sure I'm prepared so I can be safe and therefore in a better position to help others.

I really find my emotions are hyper sensitive at the moment. Just after I sent that note earlier, I was in tears with regards a comment my ex-fiance made about any employer being proud to have me.. And it hit a nerve that I realised I feel completely undervalued at work, almost like it is a complete waste of time. Especially when you know there are free energy devices / engines running on water and you are working in engineering automotive powertrains. I want to feel I'm helping to light the way for others...

I want to help wake people up, but my methods at the moment are clearly not working. I want to use my skills to help people and clearly be more ethical with the job I do. I have been reading through the free energy devices there are many and I'd love to work in that field but it is underground currently probably without funding and everyone I talk to about it smirks.

Are there any ethical / lightworker job agencies or websites? I work for one of these unethical companies which is in the Zeitgiest Movie Talking of light, I feel like a 5W bulb in a black hole

Listening to "Holy Harmony" to cheer me up...

Love and Light

[Samarkis]

In regards to employment- I know there are green jobs available.

There is also a site

http://www.wiserearth.org/job/search...rganic+Farming

Check for your area.

good luck!

Love & Light

[Connecting with Sauce]

This cheered me up slightly

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CrxfMz2eDME

[nuxa]

Hey friend know the feeling,
I myself was way down last year after consuming to much about "dark agenda stuff" and the fact that nobody seemed to care about the planet broke me even more down. I found out that to much of this stuff will only eat me up inside and make my life missirable, had to balance out..

After a long shower an some crying in the rain i finally got out the sad dark pitch. You just have to straiten your spine and play along by the prison rules until its time..

I toatly agree with you - somtimes I wish I had taken the blue pill.

-nux-

[GOTZEUS]

interesting

In my darker moments, yes. It's easy to get overwhelmed by the magnitude of what's going on. It does make it harder to function in society when you know what's really happening.

I was really depressed about it all a couple of years ago, then I stumbled across an earlier version of this presentation by Ian Lungold. This really lifted me out of the hole; i bought the DVDs and still pull them out occasionally when I'm feeling overrun.

http://video.google.com/videoplay?do...JZS-rQLXkdG-BA

http://video.google.com/videoplay?do...NISSrgKt18WQCg

These aren't copyrighted- he decided it was that important to get the message out that freely allowing copying was the only way to do it. It's an antidote to the NWO blues, and reminds me that no matter how bleak things look sometimes from our ground level perspective everything is on course.

I hope they help you guys as much as they helped me.

Blessings

[MargueriteBee]

For years now people have been saying that this terrible thing is going to happen and that terrible thing will happen, but it doesn't...

Stay centered and calm. Think beauty and beauty will come.

[quest]

you know what happens if you do not swallow viagra well?

answ:ctr click you'll end up with a stiff neck

i think your red pill didn't even begin to work yet