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02-23-2010, 06:55 PM | #1 |
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I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
I allowed myself to be sucked into a vortex of negative energy recently, and I have no one to blame but myself. As a result of this, I stumbled upon something I needed to stumble upon: the fact that I am still angered by hatred. No matter what it is, when I witness or otherwise experience any forms of hate, it causes me to break off into polarity consciousness and hate hatred. The experience I encountered here had to do specifically with hatred of homosexuality, but it's all the same. I'm just tired of allowing myself to fall into anger when I can't control who hates whom and how they are going to manifest that hatred.
I now know that I must heal that portion of myself, and that hating hatred is obviously counter-productive. I want to say I am sorry to anyone who agreed with my sentiments in that thread, because I was angry with the bigotry that certain individuals were voicing, and my sentiments were tainted by the anger. I now know that I can't necessarily expect everyone I open up to, especially people reading threads I've posted in, to be of service-to-others, and to already be in a place of understanding that we are all One, no ifs ands or buts. There are many people left who still haven't figured that out yet, and I choose to Love those people as of right now. I Love All. But I may very well not respond to certain posts or certain individuals, and I want to come right out and state that now, in print, before I hang around PA any further. I personally believe everything is already, and always has been, alright. Everything is going to be fine. But that doesn't change the fact that many people are going to be fearful of things they will be witnessing or experiencing in the upcoming years, and I only want to be there for those people. Anyone who wishes to participate in 3rd density dramas like Left vs Right, Conservative vs Republican, Christians vs Satanists, then be my guest... I just won't be paying much attention to you. I guess this is sort of an introduction too. Certain ones of you are going to be seeing me more often, and as my higher self is convincing me I'm here to stay, the least I can do in my "rebellion" is type up this one last rant, which also serves as a disclaimer stating that I mean well, I love everyone (no one excluded), and I think many of you need to lighten up, and just start loving Life. Anyway, I am a guy who was born and raised in Florida, by loving parents who fell in line and submitted to all forms of authority instituted in our society. We went to Catholic church. My parents voted in every election, local and beyond. They did what they were taught to do to raise children and be good people. I then got older and began having experiences, many of which took place under the context of catholicism, believe it or not!, which ultimately led to my waking up and realizing I was much larger then anything we have ever been taught to be. And my life hasn't been the same ever since. A few of these things, quickly:
I think this post is long enough. I just wanted to say that I love everyone, including the people I said mean things to (deserved or not) in that gay-bashing thread. I also wanted to say you'll never see or hear me engage in a conversation like THAT again! And now that that's past us, and I've been shown a part of myself I need to heal, I can get back to work. Thank you, Project Avalon for providing me with a scenario that caused me to see that I still had some anger in me I needed to process. Dear God, help me to keep evolving and to stay on the path of Love. Help me to dissolve all the illusions I have about there still being people or things to hate out there in the world. Help me to understand that once I heal the broken parts of myself, I will no longer see people hating anyone out there, because I will have made peace within. Help me to demonstrate that there is never any need for anyone to have fear, for my own sake and for the sake of all my Brothers and Sisters. Thank you. Last edited by Church; 02-23-2010 at 07:00 PM. |
02-23-2010, 07:00 PM | #2 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
There was a gay bashing thread??
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02-23-2010, 07:04 PM | #3 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
I humbly ask everyone not to talk about it in this thread, but yes, there was one. It's behind us now, and the mods locked it which is the best thing that could have happened to it.
It's a new day now! |
02-23-2010, 07:08 PM | #4 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
Church,
I just wanted to say i luv you.. |
02-23-2010, 07:11 PM | #5 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
I love you too Jonah.
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02-23-2010, 07:13 PM | #6 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
Church...I Love you too!
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02-23-2010, 07:41 PM | #7 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
I understand how you feel Church. I really do. Thank you for putting that into words, the struggle to stay balanced in the face of bigotry and intolerance is an honorable skill worth cultivating.
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02-23-2010, 07:51 PM | #8 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
Church everything is all right, we are all a family of the heart here, getting along makes us realize that we are different yet our destination is the same.
That's good to be different, that's the beauty of life an endless of different life forms all around us . Have a great day !!! Blessings to all.... |
02-23-2010, 08:03 PM | #9 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
I love you too Luana, and pilot and Frank. And everyone reading this.
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02-23-2010, 08:25 PM | #10 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
Teachers and pupils we all have these roles in Avalon .
It does'nt matter which side we find ourselves in we all learn. For every experience we make is a challenge to our Heart. In Love we grow . Love for You Church mudra |
02-23-2010, 08:39 PM | #11 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
Dear Church Thanks for posting your thoughts and feelings and im glad you are overcoming. There is no "sin" in being angry its just a "sin" to not accept responsibility for it and you have done that beautifully with love.
The moment there is responsibility taken with awareness the weakens begins to dissolve. All of that which you have spoken of in your post says a lot about what you have become and are becoming. With love Chris |
02-23-2010, 09:41 PM | #12 | |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
> I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
Awesome. We all win. Quote:
A.. Last edited by Anchor; 02-23-2010 at 09:44 PM. |
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02-23-2010, 11:04 PM | #13 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
It wasn't a gay bashing thread, but a cetain member bashed homosexuality, saying schools had an agenda to make kids homosexual, King Lear also said that it was disgusting that homosexuals "promote" homosexuality with shirts that say ,"gay pride",etc. The guy said he didn't condone homosexuality, and yet he did in every post and made offense to every member who supported homosexuality.
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02-23-2010, 11:46 PM | #14 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
Thank you for your thoughtful post, Church. It felt good to read.
I started adding consistently negative people to my Ignore List several months ago...it's made quite a difference. The threads read so much differently when I can't see certain posters. I recommend it to anyone who feels they keep getting sucked into negativity. On the other hand, I sometimes wonder if I'm just putting off dealing with something inside myself. Much Love to you, Church. Thank you for sharing. |
02-24-2010, 12:39 AM | #15 | |
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02-24-2010, 12:47 AM | #16 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
Welcome to Avalon Church
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02-24-2010, 06:34 AM | #17 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
Glad you decided to return Church, you made some good points in that other thread. I understand your intollerance of hate, but I don't think that's really what we were confronting there. Ignorance is more like it imo. I know that sounds really condescending, but I'll take the rap for that. It's not that they hate, they just see something different that they don't understand hence the fear masquerading as hate. That thread did bum me out a bit, I really didn't expect that from people who come to PA, but it's a useful reminder that ignorance is a formidable foe, and that it takes a calm lucid mind to counter the assumptions, red herrings, faulty premises, and stereo types slung by the ignorant. Hopefully someday they will realise what you and I, and many others here do, that we are all one.
Just to clarify, I started that thread, and it was most certainly intended as an ANTI - gay bashing thread. |
02-24-2010, 07:14 AM | #18 |
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~ Love and light ~ |
02-24-2010, 01:02 PM | #19 |
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Re: I discovered a weakness of mine, with thanks to Project Avalon
Thanks everyone! I really do feel the love here. I'm sorry I made myself known in the way I did, by lowering myself to the level I did in that other thread. I know that most of you know I meant well, but it doesn't change the fact that I allowed myself to get sucked down to a low level, and that is not who I am. I hereby pick myself up, dust myself off, and begin a new day.
Raulduke, I want to take the opportunity to say that I am well aware that the thread started off a different way than it ended. You most certainly started that thread with the polar opposite intention than it ended up manifesting. In fact, before the anti-gay sentiment came up, and before I had made myself known in that thread, I was showing your thread to all of my friends and certain family members that I knew would appreciate all those photos. I really love the mindset of the people who were protesting the protesters in a very civil, non-violent, and FUNNY manner. So yeah, the thread devolved from its original purpose. The person/people who initiated that devolution know exactly what they did. And I know, now, how I helped the derailment. And for that, I am sorry, and have learned a valuable lesson about myself, and other people I still share the planet with. NOW!! With all that being said, I want to personally thank everyone for welcoming me back and giving me another opportunity to introduce myself and start from scratch. I'm a nice guy, I promise. I mean well. Last edited by Church; 02-24-2010 at 01:21 PM. |
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