How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence?

yellowcosmicseed · 12-20-2009, 04:08 AM

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I am facing a certain dilemma: I believe that the divine plan is boring and worthless.

(I do suffer from affects of child neglect/abuse and am suspected to be on the autistic spectrum and I want to know if this is a factor to why I have been having the ponderings/conclusions/feelings that I have recorded here.)

Okay lets begin:

Everything began with nothingness/nonexistence (empty space), and then this became aware of itself and it manifested the great I AM. This led to the manifestation of all things that could possibly exist. This was accomplished through the appearance of light and vibration. Everything is made of vibration, and vibration is formless. This is how something comes out of nothing, the nothing uses vibration (made of formlessness) and condenses it to make something. So form is only merely the movement that lingers in the infinitive expanse of space/nonexistence. The purpose of the creation of form is for the 'One' to disidentify itself from all labels and things to go back to the peace state of 'Nonexistence'. Evil, suffering, and trial is used to progress the One back to the Peace state.

This is when I get depressed. Our existence is meant only to experience and combat evil?

I know the state of love and increased consciousness is great, but to what purpose? I totally despise the state of evil/suffering, but now I am getting distressed with the state of loving consciousness.

When an entity grows and evolves in loving consciousness then does that entity get to experience the joy of the feeling of being present in all possible experiences? When I get to that point in my train of thought I get an ugly feeling, because I then come to believe that the only mission of an entity of love consciousness is to go on its mission to combat other evils and guide others entities in their evolution. FOr some reason that sounds boring to me.

I want to have fun and joy in experiencing the many creations. But for some reason I think about how that joy does not bring true fulfillment.

I feel that the growth in loving consciousness only leads to unfulfilling glutonny of paradise and of the boring mission of combatting evil and guiding others in evolution. But the thing is I also despise service to self, because service to self and evil leads to never feeling fulfilled and eventually destroying one's self. I feel that existence is too boring. Increasing awareness of other realities feels unfulfilling to me, because they all hold the same trial of overcoming evil, in which I think that the overcoming of evil is also a boring feat.

Do I got the right picture here? Bear with me.

yellowcosmicseed · 12-20-2009, 04:17 AM

Nothing should exist, but the truth is:

everything and nothing exists and does not exist at the same time.

After all these realizations I am still depressed. I even have very very convincing evidence of the existence of past lives but I am still depressed. (side note: the abuse that occurred to me occurred in a past life, my father is much better in this life. but me and my father still carry on the effects of abuse laid on both of us. oh the agony...)

i am VERY SORRY for my negativity and let down. i should have posted this on GODLIKEPRODUCTIONS, not AVALON.

joe2288 · 12-20-2009, 04:27 AM

Don't get distressed, there's more to still to be learned for you. The battle

over good and evil doesn't matter, because once you look past that your

realize if you shine bright enough darkness cannot touch you. You are here

to learn and experience not to fight evil. Focus on the good, on the inside

rather, then negativity on the outside and you will find your equilibrium.

Remember were here to learn.

New Age Messiah · 12-20-2009, 04:33 AM

When consciousness or Spirit flows cleanly through your soul, as it is meant to, as it does in animals, just being is bliss.

You notice animals sit and do nothing and are perfectly content.

It's a big job, to get down to the bottom of your soul, get underneath everything you hid, and stored...

It's like cutting through a jungle, you have to be really really brave and strong and true, just like the action heros.

The soul is a mega mega scene, and if you purify it, then just being is bliss immeasurable and there is no "reason" or "philosophy" required.

Just know that the pure flow of consciousness or spirit through your soul is heaven on earth, and it is possible to experience, and it is a great adventure to find it.

If you make it there, you can make it anywhere.

A.H. Almaas has the best books "The Inner Journey Home" being a summary of his ten or so other books... He's deep deep but true true.

Otherwise, Eckhart Tolle is good and Ken Wilbur from what I hear.

Religious books are dumb.

yellowcosmicseed · 12-20-2009, 04:41 AM

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Originally Posted by New Age Messiah

When consciousness or Spirit flows cleanly through your soul, as it is meant to, as it does in animals, just being is bliss.

You notice animals sit and do nothing and are perfectly content.

It's a big job, to get down to the bottom of your soul, get underneath everything you hid, and stored...

It's like cutting through a jungle, you have to be really really brave and strong and true, just like the action heros.

The soul is a mega mega scene, and if you purify it, then just being is bliss immeasurable and there is no "reason" or "philosophy" required.

Just know that the pure flow of consciousness or spirit through your soul is heaven on earth, and it is possible to experience, and it is a great adventure to find it.

If you make it there, you can make it anywhere.

A.H. Almaas has the best books "The Inner Journey Home" being a summary of his ten or so other books... He's deep deep but true true.

Otherwise, Eckhart Tolle is good and Ken Wilbur from what I hear.

Religious books are dumb.

Well I know its going to take longer for me and i am trying to at least make it past my abuse scenario. Its going to take lots of work. My fear is that I might end up being one of those souls that end up in the state of decay and will end up being 'recycled'.

sorry for the pessimism

yellowcosmicseed · 12-20-2009, 04:45 AM

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Originally Posted by yellowcosmicseed

Well I know its going to take longer for me and i am trying to at least make it past my abuse scenario. Its going to take lots of work. My fear is that I might end up being one of those souls that end up in the state of decay and will end up being 'recycled'.

sorry for the pessimism

Well the thing I guess I really need are tools and techniques i can use to repair, cleanse, and heal myself. wow

yellowcosmicseed · 12-20-2009, 04:48 AM

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Originally Posted by yellowcosmicseed

Well the thing I guess I really need are tools and techniques i can use to repair, cleanse, and heal myself. wow

Can anyone give me advice on how I should go about doing this? (Considering my specific circumstances as stated above.)

New Age Messiah · 12-20-2009, 04:55 AM

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Can anyone give me advice on how I should go about doing this? (Considering my specific circumstances as stated above.)

1. Read "Soul Without Shame" by Byron Brown. This will let you see how your inner voice is kind of like a demon.

2. Read "The Way of the Wizard" by Deepak Chopra. Read it over and over again until it sinks in.

3. Read "The Inner Journey Home" by A.H. Almaas, over and over again, the parts about non-conceptual awareness, and divine love, especially.

This is about a three year plan. From day one just know that you are dealing with Reality, not anyone's opinion.

"I am the universe" is what you can know absolutely.

ConsciousSponge · 12-20-2009, 04:54 AM

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Originally Posted by yellowcosmicseed

Well the thing I guess I really need are tools and techniques i can use to repair, cleanse, and heal myself. wow

I like Eckhardt Tolle's A New Earth and The Power of Now for starters

yellowcosmicseed · 12-20-2009, 05:12 AM

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Originally Posted by ConsciousSponge

I like Eckhardt Tolle's A New Earth and The Power of Now for starters

I have read them already some time before.

joe2288 · 12-20-2009, 05:15 AM

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Originally Posted by yellowcosmicseed

I have read them already some time before.

Have you ever looked into any of the work of Delores Cannon. I can get

you the links to her videos. She helped me think on another level, let me

know.

yellowcosmicseed · 12-20-2009, 05:17 AM

Well maybe I can utilize some of that Rons Org Scientology?

conjuredUp · 12-20-2009, 05:46 AM

Read some Byron Katie. Either, "Loving What Is" or "I Need Your Love, Is It True."

She doesn't use the word "ego" like Tolle does (which for some, throws up impenetrable walls) so she gets you to BE IN THE NOW by showing you (which, we all already know, BTW) how to get away from thought.

"I am bored" is a thought. Are you *REALLY* bored? No... you are interacting with like minded people via the magic of the internet. Your thoughts TRICK you into believing THEY are reality.

But the reality is... you aren't bored. You are magic. Just like we all are.
When you get out of your thoughts, you will thrill in every second.

LOVE LOVE LOVE to you all.
Great post!
C

14 Chakras · 12-20-2009, 09:20 AM

There is no fight between light and dark. Only Light is reality. Fighting darkness creates darkness. Stop fighting, resisting, and just Be. React not. Why Be bored when you just need to Be? Freedom is reality ~ co-creation, reality is Peace, Bliss, Power, Infinite co-creative inspiration ~

100thmonkey · 12-20-2009, 10:04 AM

Yes, I also feel that the whole of creation is 'just something to do'.

I think you're feeling what the original universal consciouness must have felt. It's why she then plunged elements of herself into the ignorance of matter, and here we are.
They say 'ignorance is bliss'...
yet our return to awareness is inevitable.

P.S. I don't think any soul get's 'recycled', if you mean it's journey cut short...? The experience of passing through such a phase is as valuable as any other.
...and no need to apologise for being a 'bring down'. Everybody experiences it.

Gnosis5 · 01-05-2010, 07:23 PM

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Originally Posted by yellowcosmicseed

Well maybe I can utilize some of that Rons Org Scientology?

If one wishes to go the Scientology route I would recommend R3X which is an upgrade of the original Dianetics that got the whole movement going in the first place. Unfortunately, Dianetics did not get upgraded, only added onto. That has been corrected with R3X as far as I am seeing from a scientological perspective. But then I eschew levels and control and prefer simple, informal, natural path. I guess I am more Buddhic in my approach.

However, once a being can be trusted with his "siddhis" or powers then one could and should become fully "electrical". That is one aspect of ourselves, and I don't see why we cannot express it once we can trust ourselves.

New Age Messiah · 12-20-2009, 04:50 AM

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Originally Posted by yellowcosmicseed

Well I know its going to take longer for me and i am trying to at least make it past my abuse scenario. Its going to take lots of work. My fear is that I might end up being one of those souls that end up in the state decay and will end up being 'recycled'.

sorry for the pessimism

Ascension, higher vibration, etc. will come if you want it to, if you have a heart for truth, it will find its way.

Think how easy everything in life is, if you let it be...

You don't have to look to see.
You don't have to listen to hear.

Everything just happens.

ConsciousSponge · 12-20-2009, 04:53 AM

I believe you are going through your spiritual birth. Check out my post and see if it makes sense to you. ego

At first you think you know, then you know you know, then you start to find the truth and it is more powerful and stranger than you thought you knew

Gnosis5 · 01-05-2010, 07:07 PM

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Originally Posted by yellowcosmicseed

Well I know its going to take longer for me and i am trying to at least make it past my abuse scenario. Its going to take lots of work. My fear is that I might end up being one of those souls that end up in the state of decay and will end up being 'recycled'.

sorry for the pessimism

HA! That is sooo funny!! You know what? When I was in the Church of Scientology one day a very "high level" person told me that I was going to become a rock. That was equivalent to having the Pope tell a Catholic that they would burn in hell forever. Boy was intimidated.

Years later I leave the CofS and join with a select Freezone group, and you want to know what I found out? I found out that some people who are now very nice and normal people once were a rock!!! Oh, the joke was on me.
Quantum physicists could probably confirm that as they find out that everything contains consciousness.

Céline · 01-05-2010, 07:11 PM

Boredom???

that is so very sad...

haibane · 12-20-2009, 04:28 AM

Erm, how do you know that is the truth? Btw if you continue searching, you'll never be bored again, and also you will most likely find out that your conclusions were a bit premature (^_^ )

yellowcosmicseed · 12-20-2009, 04:37 AM

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Originally Posted by haibane

Erm, how do you know that is the truth? Btw if you continue searching, you'll never be bored again, and also you will most likely find out that your conclusions were a bit premature (^_^ )

so once one makes it past the yin/yang light/darkness stage then is existence truly fun? is true fulfillment from experiencing and knowing other possibilities of existence?

pshh i dont know.

I seriously need help.

(sorry for the pessimism)

haibane · 12-20-2009, 05:07 AM

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Originally Posted by yellowcosmicseed

so once one makes it past the yin/yang light/darkness stage then is existence truly fun? is true fulfillment from experiencing and knowing other possibilities of existence?

pshh i dont know.

I seriously need help.

(sorry for the pessimism)

Well, I can only speak for myself - but yes, for me searching and getting answers, and discovering new questions, learning, is the ultimate joy. Have you ever played computer games? Finishing a level may be a pretty good experience, but ultimately it ends with the 'GAME OVER' message. But with learning you just know there will always be next level, a new challenge. You need to experience it yourself; there might be people (or beings) who might help guiding you to another level, or show you the direction, but ultimately it's up to you.

Gnosis5 · 01-05-2010, 07:16 PM

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Originally Posted by haibane

Erm, how do you know that is the truth? Btw if you continue searching, you'll never be bored again, and also you will most likely find out that your conclusions were a bit premature (^_^ )

Amen to that. The choice of seeking higher truths is the best adventure I have ever been on, and I am no longer addicted to having adventures either

aroundthetable · 12-20-2009, 09:55 AM

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Originally Posted by yellowcosmicseed

Nothing should exist, but the truth is:

everything and nothing exists and does not exist at the same time.

After all these realizations I am still depressed. I even have very very convincing evidence of the existence of past lives but I am still depressed. (side note: the abuse that occurred to me occurred in a past life, my father is much better in this life. but me and my father still carry on the effects of abuse laid on both of us. oh the agony...)

i am VERY SORRY for my negativity and let down. i should have posted this on GODLIKEPRODUCTIONS, not AVALON.

to think in this way shows you are a mature and advanced personality

your right, the material world is a hellish place, it is that way because we are not meant to be here, we belong with god, we forget that when we take birth here of our own choice, to play at being little controllers. we asked for it. anybody that thinks they are happy in this world is a fool, this is indeed a prison like planet where birth, old age, disease and death reign. However, if you direct your thoughts and actions towards love, you can be happy even in this life, knowing things as they are.

That was a really good thought share dear poster, thanks for the effort and sincerity, and thanks for giving me the opportunity to remember god.

The Bhagavad Gita was the scripture that was key to my own personal realisations, so of course i would recommend it to everyone.

12-20-2009, 04:08 AM	#1
yellowcosmicseed Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Dec 2009 Posts: 26	How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence? WARNING: LOW LEVEL VIBRATION LINGERS HERE. (PLEASE TOLERATE MY DISTURBANCE.) I am facing a certain dilemma: I believe that the divine plan is boring and worthless. (I do suffer from affects of child neglect/abuse and am suspected to be on the autistic spectrum and I want to know if this is a factor to why I have been having the ponderings/conclusions/feelings that I have recorded here.) Okay lets begin: Everything began with nothingness/nonexistence (empty space), and then this became aware of itself and it manifested the great I AM. This led to the manifestation of all things that could possibly exist. This was accomplished through the appearance of light and vibration. Everything is made of vibration, and vibration is formless. This is how something comes out of nothing, the nothing uses vibration (made of formlessness) and condenses it to make something. So form is only merely the movement that lingers in the infinitive expanse of space/nonexistence. The purpose of the creation of form is for the 'One' to disidentify itself from all labels and things to go back to the peace state of 'Nonexistence'. Evil, suffering, and trial is used to progress the One back to the Peace state. This is when I get depressed. Our existence is meant only to experience and combat evil? I know the state of love and increased consciousness is great, but to what purpose? I totally despise the state of evil/suffering, but now I am getting distressed with the state of loving consciousness. When an entity grows and evolves in loving consciousness then does that entity get to experience the joy of the feeling of being present in all possible experiences? When I get to that point in my train of thought I get an ugly feeling, because I then come to believe that the only mission of an entity of love consciousness is to go on its mission to combat other evils and guide others entities in their evolution. FOr some reason that sounds boring to me. I want to have fun and joy in experiencing the many creations. But for some reason I think about how that joy does not bring true fulfillment. I feel that the growth in loving consciousness only leads to unfulfilling glutonny of paradise and of the boring mission of combatting evil and guiding others in evolution. But the thing is I also despise service to self, because service to self and evil leads to never feeling fulfilled and eventually destroying one's self. I feel that existence is too boring. Increasing awareness of other realities feels unfulfilling to me, because they all hold the same trial of overcoming evil, in which I think that the overcoming of evil is also a boring feat. Do I got the right picture here? Bear with me.

12-20-2009, 04:17 AM	#2
yellowcosmicseed Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Dec 2009 Posts: 26	Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence? Nothing should exist, but the truth is: everything and nothing exists and does not exist at the same time. After all these realizations I am still depressed. I even have very very convincing evidence of the existence of past lives but I am still depressed. (side note: the abuse that occurred to me occurred in a past life, my father is much better in this life. but me and my father still carry on the effects of abuse laid on both of us. oh the agony...) i am VERY SORRY for my negativity and let down. i should have posted this on GODLIKEPRODUCTIONS, not AVALON.

12-20-2009, 04:27 AM	#3
joe2288 Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: Illinois USA Posts: 652	Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence? Don't get distressed, there's more to still to be learned for you. The battle over good and evil doesn't matter, because once you look past that your realize if you shine bright enough darkness cannot touch you. You are here to learn and experience not to fight evil. Focus on the good, on the inside rather, then negativity on the outside and you will find your equilibrium. Remember were here to learn.

12-20-2009, 04:33 AM	#4
New Age Messiah Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: Coeur d'Alene, ID Posts: 258	Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence? When consciousness or Spirit flows cleanly through your soul, as it is meant to, as it does in animals, just being is bliss. You notice animals sit and do nothing and are perfectly content. It's a big job, to get down to the bottom of your soul, get underneath everything you hid, and stored... It's like cutting through a jungle, you have to be really really brave and strong and true, just like the action heros. The soul is a mega mega scene, and if you purify it, then just being is bliss immeasurable and there is no "reason" or "philosophy" required. Just know that the pure flow of consciousness or spirit through your soul is heaven on earth, and it is possible to experience, and it is a great adventure to find it. If you make it there, you can make it anywhere. A.H. Almaas has the best books "The Inner Journey Home" being a summary of his ten or so other books... He's deep deep but true true. Otherwise, Eckhart Tolle is good and Ken Wilbur from what I hear. Religious books are dumb.

12-20-2009, 05:17 AM	#12
yellowcosmicseed Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Dec 2009 Posts: 26	Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence? Well maybe I can utilize some of that Rons Org Scientology?

12-20-2009, 05:46 AM	#13
conjuredUp Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: beyond the sun... Posts: 253	Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence? Read some Byron Katie. Either, "Loving What Is" or "I Need Your Love, Is It True." She doesn't use the word "ego" like Tolle does (which for some, throws up impenetrable walls) so she gets you to BE IN THE NOW by showing you (which, we all already know, BTW) how to get away from thought. "I am bored" is a thought. Are you REALLY bored? No... you are interacting with like minded people via the magic of the internet. Your thoughts TRICK you into believing THEY are reality. But the reality is... you aren't bored. You are magic. Just like we all are. When you get out of your thoughts, you will thrill in every second. LOVE LOVE LOVE to you all. Great post! C

12-20-2009, 09:20 AM	#14
14 Chakras Avalon Senior Member Join Date: May 2009 Location: Calgary, Canada Posts: 832	Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence? There is no fight between light and dark. Only Light is reality. Fighting darkness creates darkness. Stop fighting, resisting, and just Be. React not. Why Be bored when you just need to Be? Freedom is reality ~ co-creation, reality is Peace, Bliss, Power, Infinite co-creative inspiration ~

12-20-2009, 10:04 AM	#15
100thmonkey Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: Newcastle, Oz Posts: 177	Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence? Yes, I also feel that the whole of creation is 'just something to do'. I think you're feeling what the original universal consciouness must have felt. It's why she then plunged elements of herself into the ignorance of matter, and here we are. They say 'ignorance is bliss'... yet our return to awareness is inevitable. P.S. I don't think any soul get's 'recycled', if you mean it's journey cut short...? The experience of passing through such a phase is as valuable as any other. ...and no need to apologise for being a 'bring down'. Everybody experiences it.

12-20-2009, 04:53 AM	#18
ConsciousSponge Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Jan 2009 Location: New Jersey Posts: 30	Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence? I believe you are going through your spiritual birth. Check out my post and see if it makes sense to you. ego At first you think you know, then you know you know, then you start to find the truth and it is more powerful and stranger than you thought you knew

01-05-2010, 07:11 PM	#20
Céline Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Location: Canada Posts: 1,285	Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence? Boredom??? that is so very sad...

12-20-2009, 04:28 AM	#21
haibane Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Dec 2009 Location: Prague Posts: 75	Re: How does one deal with the 'boredom' of existence? Erm, how do you know that is the truth? Btw if you continue searching, you'll never be bored again, and also you will most likely find out that your conclusions were a bit premature (^_^ )