Ever had the feeling everything is not the way it should be?

[paul1980]

Hi,

I am just trying to make sense of my own life here, so i would like to view your opinions and experiences on this.
So feel free to respond / react, i can only learn from this.

Does anyone of you ever had the feeling they did not belong on earth?
Does anyone of you ever had the feeling something is very very wrong?
Does anyone of you keeps longing for a place that you know can be, but never in physical form experienced since birth?
Does anyone of you keeps running into problems with the majority of human kind for seeing the world as it could be, and then trying to talk about it?
Does anyone of you feels sick and tired (and sick as in want to throw up) with this political systems, lies, propaganda, wars, money, hatred, closed mindedness.

Just it is that i have a list going on for a while more, but the point is, how does one deal with all the emotions coming out of these feelings, emotional imbalance can be so great and the rage or sadness coming from it are very intens, psychiatricks do not offer help on this field since it is not a sickness being different, these are what i call personal battles, but they are sooooooo hard to fight, being pressed down from childhood till now, forced into a world that you know is not right, trying to tell your parents, and being ignored or becoming black sheeps. constantly mocked, avoided, people seem afraid.
Do you know how things work by only touching it? (i mean how to operate it, not how to build it)
Can you feel what others are feeling, sometimes, or all the time?

Many times dissapointed when thinking to have found the same sort of people, only to see that actually they do not belong also, but are still sheep of their own group.
And because of all that there is no more way to behave in a normal way, always thinking about the several consequences one actions makes, all those outcomes, all those adaptations to try to make others happy.

The world i/we live in is not as it should be, and people are not people anylonger, they have become groups of mindless beasts doing alot to get a reward or a pat on the back, however in one on one contact i find people to be sometimes able to become loose again even when it is just a short time and then returning to what they call "reality".

My excuses for the improper usage and knowledge of the language used.
And my excuses for a somewhat negative approach, it is not my intend.
I feel we are all equals dispite of what we have done or will do, in the end, we are all but the same.

(oh, mods, if this topic is in the wrong place, feel free to move it or delete it, i would apreciate a pm on the how and why)

first topicstart here so just want to see the outcome of reactions.