advice pls, its NOT about information

[deck]

hello,
pls tell me how to handle the problem of feeling to be 100% wrong on this planet.
i felt quite different from ppl sourounding me since i can remember.
now i am 25 and i am grinding on the edge of tripping completly out - far beyond i already did.
things gone way to far i cant liv here any more.
i am about to lose the last pieces of a hopefully perspectiv.
all these years i forfeited a once enormous power due to beeing misslead by ppl i trusted.
now i want to go home - but guess i can't....

tell me pls what the "§$%& is wrong

my english isnt the best so i cannot tell it gentlier:
i dont want answers from amateurs, nor any expectations etc.
content is hot and about to split...

hold the line.

[Frank Samuel]

What you are experiencing is happening to all of us here in project avalon. I live in Puerto Rico, as a soldier I travel to Germany where I was station for 7 years. I feel a little out of place because in a way our essence which originated long ago has been to many places, little by little we begin to remember. My advice is embrace all aspects of yourself and don't worry if you feel you do not belong. Welcome to project Avalon lets discover our true origins together you are in good company here.

[THE eXchanger]

Originally Posted by deck

hello,
pls tell me how to handle the problem of feeling to be 100% wrong on this planet.
i felt quite different from ppl sourounding me since i can remember.
now i am 25 and i am grinding on the edge of tripping completly out - far beyond i already did.
things gone way to far i cant liv here any more.
i am about to lose the last pieces of a hopefully perspectiv.
all these years i forfeited a once enormous power due to beeing misslead by ppl i trusted.
now i want to go home - but guess i can't....

tell me pls what the "§$%& is wrong

my english isnt the best so i cannot tell it gentlier:
i dont want answers from amateurs, nor any expectations etc.
content is hot and about to split...

hold the line.

feeling different is good, embrace iT, that iS, what you are

when you say, you do NOT want information from amateurs

this is NOT a brilliant way, to word that

there iS not one single soul,
who you cross paths with,
that you can NOT learn something of value

even if, 'the value' iS, we do NOT want that

sometimes,when you focus, on what you do NOT want

you attract, a lot more of that

why NOT focus, on what iT iS that you do want ???

and, those who state, they have 'no' eXpectations

place themselves, into an arena, that gives them 'nothing'

and, creates a void

the void is good-since, this is where you are going to utilise

your will - as, your way

and, command, and, demand, (and, you fill in the blanks)

if you have a will,
there will be a way, shown to you

without 'a will', there iS 'NO way'

iT iS you, and, only you
who will propel, you,
thru finding 'your will'
to 'the path' that can lead you
where it is, you want to go

you would NOT set out on a trip from london, to glastonbury

without first, deciding the direction you would need to take

likewise, within life,

when sitting, NOT knowing, what it neXt

you ask, for things, that are in alignment with
your missions, your purposes, and, your tasks,
ask of your higher self, your essence, and, your monad,
and, any types of higher guidiance/or, higher guardians
(everyone has 13 of them)
to show up

in other words, you invite, the people, to your party !!!

(otherwise, you party alone)

ask yourself, where do i find value ?

ask yourself, what am i really here to do?

ask yourself, what do i attach the most importance to ???

there is NO doubt, we understand, full well, that this planet of earth
iS NOT, the easiest place, to want to stay
but, stay here, we do

why-is a simple answer / the mother earth, is about to change

what once, we might of seen as dark, we do NOT give it our energy

what once, we might of seen as dark, we painted light, within us

and, then we started a process,

to show, our caring, by sharing,

everyone, absolutely everyone is one form of eXchanger, or, another

what iS iT you truly want to pull into your inner worlds,
so, you might be able, to reflect that out,
to the outer worlds

you share inner/with outer, all the time

others can make you happier, however, others can NOT make you happy

start in your core - go to the crossroads within
search for the road that leads from lower heart, to higher heart
search for the road that leads from lower mind, to higher mind
and, push a massive cleansing, and, clearing,
through all of it - something, like some internal house keeping

ironically, you can will yourself, to go anywhere

perhaps, it is truly time, to ponder, and, to wonder
and, really eXplore, the true magnificance of all you are
so, you might take all of that, and, simply, care enough to share that,
with others

there is always a lot of road ahead,
you use it, or, you lose iT

always - your choice

you are always, eXpressing, all ways,
that you have discovered,
that work, and, that do NOT work

we will leave you with a thought,
iF you could do, anything, absolutely, anything
without any restrictions, what would that be ???

and, then, eXamine, all the steps; from there,
to eXactly where iT iS, that you are,
and, like the blank canvas, if you figure out
how to fill them in, they will appear to you,
just like magic

magic is simply energy, energy is simply magic

that in a nut-shell, iS what you are;
and, what everyone else is, too
ask your inner master, what the outer master,
needs to do ~ the secret is always inside of you

love/viviane~lady of the lake
thru susan

[burgundia]

I think I will send some love and light to you, use it wisely....

[deck]

hello²

i want to thank you for your real quick replys.

i dont know what to say right now.

just wanted to tell you that i am thankful.

ill go to bed and do some homework right now.



hold the line.

[sjkted]

Greetings Deck:

Ich freue mich von Sie zu horen. Ich habe dasselbe gefuhlt seit ich sehr jung war.

I can tell you from my personal experience that there is a very good reason why you are here. Part of the journey of being alive is to find out what you're doing here and the other part is to do what you are here to do.

When I was younger, I spent all of my time studying foreign languages and researching where I might find people that are like me. I'm not a xenophobe or anything, but you have to be in this type of position to understand :-)

Trusting people is part of life. Some of them will let you down. Part of growing is learning to assess people and their capabilities and loyalty. Life is meaningless without relationships, so keep your heart open.

The best answer I can give you is that nothing is wrong, everything is how it's supposed to be, but if you are feeling this way intensely right now, you have a great experience to grow to the next level. Look for your next opportunity in life and you will find it!

--sjkted