There is definitely a strong pull away from the anxiety and fear for me. When first taken to my journey about my own existence and learning of the coming difficult times, I was full of worry and sense of preparation in the physical aspect, the material part of our existence. Where to go when martial law hits us, how to be prepared when the grid fails so on and so on. And then in the end, the whole process became tiresome and I sense a dead end.
Then I realize, there is something far greater that must be addressed. It sort of is telling me that while it is helpful to come out alive in the end, there is something more profound that is needed to be learned when going through these things that are coming our way.
It makes sense, it would be self-defeating to be prepared and only to survive the whole ordeal more paranoid than ever. The next challenge for me would be to learn not to fear, with rope, medical kit, crank radio and a katadyn in hand.
PEACE
Nikki