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How convenient this thread is here...less than 10 minutes ago..at about 8:00-8:15 am gmt+1 i woke up and decided to put everything down on a digital paper...before i forget it.

2 parts (introduction and main part)

Something happened to me and it was never like that.



I had a dream it was in my house with the usual hard to figure out happening in my head...inside of my house was like some research laboratory...and than...zombies attacked (i know and no i can not tell how and why) and i killed one with two screw drivers and i got a very detailed look at my "hand work" than i rushed out into the room (that looked like the real one) there was my mother (i think it was my mother i did not have a good look at her) and it was something about a zombie baby and i took her hand and told her we need to go..and we exited the house via the actual exit that exists (but not main exit) than we were running and i figured i am running in the same direction (around the house) on the actual road that exists...and i though to myself: "why am i doing this, this is stupid" and than i saw some strange "post-apocalyptic" dwelings by the road that do not exist...than while running pass the front yard i saw three large vehicles parked on it...one of them being a big blue garbage truck and I thought to myself: "wtf, this can not be, why are this on our yard" (i know our yard...there are no such things on it)...and than while still running i thought to myself: "this is **** it is like in a movie" and than we reached the fire station area (which really exists)...where i experienced another dream...dream I know...i am 100% sure i had before at least 1 time...there were different people on different transportation vehicles/devices driving around the area in front of the fire station area...and i remember one of them telling me...that...(i can not remember exact words) that: "this is not real and that i can go back" So i decided to go back home where the zombies are (mother was there all the time).

Just at the point where i was to go start going back...i said to myself in dreams: "this is not real i am dreaming"

and

everything went "blank", everything was gone but me...there was nothing but me...it felt like i was alone in infinity

i wanted the ocean to appear and the beach but was not able to do it...i tried hard but could not do it...than i stopped trying and realized if feels like i am in the air in this "state" where there was nothing but me....i always wanted to fly...like the time i was little and i could "fly"....and there i was flying over some city with all the necessary detail....there was even music around me or in the "background" and it felt fantastic...i was flying.....but it was over very quick and i found myself flying very high towards some mountains and there were smaller plains around me and i was faster than them...and than i was back at some other city (this "jumps" were beyond my control) and than i wanted to stop so i stopped flying but i noticed that wile i am still levitating in the air...the earth beneath me is moving and i wanted earth to stop moving but failed and that also woke me up or perhaps it was some other noise...

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this is how i remember it...this is how it happened... i think i did not dream i have a lucid dream and that i actually had one...a first one...or at least a 1st one i can remember so clearly....upon realizing...with help from others in my dream...that i am dreaming...it was like someone pushed a switch...i felt in my head...still felt it the first moments after i woke up.....it was different...it was a holodeck under my control (not entirely though) and it seems that it is easier to create something via feeling than by demand....it was just so very hard to maintain control

i liked it and i wish i could do it more often...

EDIT: typos etc...

additional edit:

i did some thinking and i think it was the dream environment (house i live in and the immidiate area around the house) that helped me to realize that something is not "right". i am extremely familiar with how things "really" are...and that i believe somehow triggered me to be suspicious...that started the dream at the fire station...where i was somehow helped to realize it is not real. i have a feeling i was at the fire station before but most likely failed to get past it....it has been 2 hours now and i am happy i wrote it down immediately...the memory is getting vague...

i have a lot of trouble remembering my dreams....but there are one dreams i had more than 6 years ago...i was in high school...and i had very sincere wish to die (suicide...."personal" stuff etc) i made that wish/decision (is was a firm decision) to die...just before i went to sleep...and i had a dream i still remember: it was night time...the moon was full, and there was a a witch on the broom circling around the moon...but she was not going around in circles...she was going around across it but not through it... (i hope you can understand it) the witch was laughing...and than suddenly i was by the road...where we (my grandma) has some land which is/was used to grow food etc... (it exists) and was walking there along the road and a group of older man (about 30 or so)...having a discussion and laughing...came by me...on of the man extended his hand and offered it to me...i was unsure what to do...i had bad experiences so i did not accept his hand....the man moved on and the witch told me: you will die... and i woke up and I was scared - really scared (nothing lucid about it though)