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Old 10-25-2009, 04:40 AM   #22
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Default Re: Experiences since a toddler - all my life.

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Hi m1, thank you for sharing your story. You might find Dr. David Jacobs work of interest. He wrote 'The Threat' and it's on PDF where you can google a link to it. I have noticed that many abductees are generational and the family is connected with the military. However I do have some confusion about the hybridization program and the young earth children who are taken. And I'm just unclear as to the whole military component with respect to where they work in concert with the ETs and abduction of children. Personally, I think kidnapping of and experimentaion on children as evil. And I'm most concerned about any US citizen (military or otherwide) engaged in these type of nefarious practices where children (the innocent) are victimized and left with PTS... which is what you experienced while at the dentist. The dental type setting triggered negative unconscious memories which had been blocked from your conscious mind. The problem with these type of ET activities is that they happen when the subject is wide awake and conscious where all of the physical pain and emotional trauma are conscious events... then they block the memory creating a hotbed of unconscious aniexty triggers. It's not like when one enters into the hospital for surgery, discusses it with the doc, is put out with meds and wakes up in recovery with the procedure behind them.
Well, regarding the PTS, I'd buy that. I mean, it's blatantly obvious that I was discontent about SOMETHING as someone leaned over me with a metal object. I felt like I wanted to grab him by the neck and strangle him. I really lost the plot that day. I was so embarrassed.

I was having trouble with my wisom teeth, and after that "episode" the dentist recommended that when I had them removed I was to be put to sleep. That was probably a very good idea, because I very likely WOULD have strangled someone.

But you know something peculiar? After that trip, I went to the hospital to have my wisdom teeth removed. I tell no word of a lie, this is what happened:

I was lying on the bed thing what ever it is called in a gown, in a room, ready to be rolled into the theater. A nurse places a blanket over me and also a machine which pumps warm air into another plastic type blanket to raise my body temperature. I noted to them: "Good, because I am very cold blooded". I wasn't trying to reference anything. All I meant was that I feel the cold much more than other people. Then, another guy (don't know what his role was), but he had ONE slit eye, I could see it (and I swear I am not telling fibs), he said: "Like those creatures from the center of the earth?". I looked at him and my eyes opened like saucepans (so to speak). I was speechless. Why did he say THAT? That is NOT a good thing to say to me if they wish me to STAY on that table and not disintegrate everything in the room! However, I didn't say anything or move, because I still felt highly embarrassed about the "dentist" situation and I didn't want to come out of that surgery having dome something even worse. So I just lied there and tried to keep my cool. But I was thinking.. WHY did you say that?

..and why DID he say that? I tell no word of a lie, I looked into his eyes just prior to him saying that and one of them was slit. I thought I was imagining things. See, the whole thing is - I was AWARE (after the dentist situation) that I get a bit over excited when people lean over me with metal objects, so I was trying HARD to just remain calm and not do anything that will cause me embarrassment. That is pretty much the only reason why I didn't jump off that table there and then -- because I was already putting in a great effort to remain calm. But I am still highly confused why he said that.

Maybe it was an inside joke between the staff? Maybe they were told what I did at the dentist? Maybe they know something about people who react that way? Maybe he was trying to get a reaction? I am still left with the question: WHY did he say that?

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This makes one wonder as to what possible motive is there for so much deliberate pain and suffering through an entire life for abductees who are used for genetic hybridization program. Why is it necessary for children to suffer? Yet this is what the secret government does do to children and has done for the past 50 years plus. So who is really behind the whole abduction scenario? Us, them... a combination of the two?
Hybridization doesn't really fit the way I see things, but I am not closed minded. I wouldn't be at all surprised if I am a hybrid of some kind. It would certainly make sense. I am very different (not in appearance) but in mindset towards just about everyone around me. I know that EVERYONE is different to one extent or another -- but I M REALLY different in the way that I see and react to things. I am different in what I see as valuable and what is not valuable. I often have great difficulty fitting in with peers, and have to put in a great conscious effort to act as they do -- not because I have low self esteem and want them to like me, but because if I act the way "I" feel I should act, they all think I am weird - so I can do without it. I only ever say a fraction of what I am thinking in social environments. I often look at the way people relate and react to each other and I find myself becoming rather depressed with social situations -- in minutes. So I sit there and smile and fit in, but deep down I am thinking? Is THIS all there is? Is THIS what people find fun? Oh man... I'd prefer to stand in the middle of nowhere and stare at the stars than I would like to sit with a heap of people drinking and telling crude jokes and reciting stupid stories about some immoral thing they did the day before. It's a real chore for me to deal with. So I live alone and I have been single for a decade. I just can't handle being around people for too long. They are very depressing to me.

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m1, I'm truly sorry for what you have been through and... you may want to consider that you are a hybrid much like sleeper, lou baldwin, is where he remembered them bringing him to his body after he was born. Your earlier memberies are telling.
I can't say i know - either way. It's possible, I guess. On some level. I just don't know. I don't have evidence to support that, but like I said, I wouldn't be at all surprised. I am most certainly different to 99% of other people and there are few people I can tolerate being around without getting bored or disillusioned with their mindset.

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As with respect to the door to the unconscious opened and your recalling future events... at another level of your awareness you seem to have access to information at the quantom level where there is no sense of time as all exists simultaneously. Time if for 3rd dimension where experiences are experienced a linear. When folks sleep that linear time mode is turned off and one experiences as multi-dimensional. I suspect your consciousness is plugged into a bigger circut then the average human being.
I'd buy that. I see a lot of things that I honestly can't even put into words. There just aren't the words. Then, if I try to explain what I see it makes no sense. In my mind I have a whole thought process which runs off images and what is "like" but is not exactly like: feelings. There's no way to verbalize or explain these thoughts. It's kind of like knowing the English language and talking to a dog. All the dog can understand is a few key words. You can relate SOME of what you think to the dog, but it really doesn't understand. It just knows that when you say "FETCH" it need to go and get what ever you threw. It doesn't know what fetch means though. Similarly, I have a whole range of thoughts and feelings and pictures in my mind that I can see but I don't know what they mean. I guess a good analogy would be that I am a caveman. I can make verbal sounds, and I know that certain grunts and moans represent "language" (even though I don't know what language really is), and then someone gave me a radio which links to the year 2009, and although I know that these people (who are speaking fluently and clearly) are using those sounds to say SOMETHING, I haven't been trained in the language so I don't know what they're saying. That is the best way I can describe what's in my head. It's hard to explain..

edit I just thought of another analogy. Imagine someone who was blind from birth. Then all the sudden they wake up one morning and they can see. They can see just like you and me but they have NO idea what they're looking at. That is another suitable analogy. Except I am not speaking of "vision" I am speaking about some thoughts and things in my head. I can't understand it. Sometimes I get so tired of it, I wind up just sitting there and staring for minutes. I have NO idea WHAT I am thinking, except that something is processing and I just can't be bothered looking, so I just wait for it to pass. Imagine being on a spinning wheel on your back at a playground. It's spinning and spinning. You could put in effort to TRY to make sense of what you see, but it's too much of a chore, so you just look straight up and watch the blur. That's the best way I can explain..

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