F@/K!
Norman my heart breaks for you buddy. I will not fill this reply with false sympathy. You and your family are in my thoughts. I believe your nephew's energy survives and you will reunite. You are not a piece of
s@/t...you cared for him and comparing yourself to him does not help. You must be there for your family and 'raise the energy' within the family. You are on this forum! You are aware of what is to come in our future!. His death is not in vain.
Please forgive me if I am too abrupt.