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MMe M · 12-06-2008, 04:58 AM

Oh muh gawd.

I watched your video. It might have been mine but I have had no luck finding my birth parents. My father died of a heart attack and he had suggested weeks before he died unexpectedly that I find my birth parents.

I had forgotten how traumatized I was by the devil when I was very young. About three. I drew him everywhere, in books, on walls, everywhere. I was so scared. I kept myself up for hours on end, till I fell exhausted to sleep. It was never long before I had company of one kind or another. I saw many that were not alive in this realm and many more that had been but were living no more. Most were lonely, as no one could see or hear them. I just wasnt old enough to pass on messages and when I did get the adults to listen I was punished for lying. My real but quite dead father came more than once. He had camo fatigues on and died in Vietnam he told me. I was two.

Its just better to sleep during the day, I am still convinced of this.

I can remember being an infant, and a toddler. I never unclench till I am near a tropical beach with the sea lapping the shore. Something inside just relaxes and you know then and there that your every day life is filled with unbearable ugliness not felt in front of a warm ocean.

You are brave my dear. I am deeply suspicious of any insitutional medical types and dont care if they have a label for me or not. They can shove their labels. I dont fit in with their society and the more I get to know of society the less I even want to assimilate. Who needs the small minded negative mob anyways? I do not. It takes a strong individual to not fear the solitude assocated with this "gift" we have been given.

Imagine what it would be like to not hear what others are thinking? Its a definite edge over most of humanity. They are taught its a condition or disease, poor pathetic things. We know better but some days I too question my sanity. Its hard not too with so many "normal" people paraded in front of you every day in the media.

I for one am glad you made the film. Good job.

12-06-2008, 04:58 AM	#11
MMe M Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Posts: 211	Re: My Strange Encounters Video! Oh muh gawd. I watched your video. It might have been mine but I have had no luck finding my birth parents. My father died of a heart attack and he had suggested weeks before he died unexpectedly that I find my birth parents. I had forgotten how traumatized I was by the devil when I was very young. About three. I drew him everywhere, in books, on walls, everywhere. I was so scared. I kept myself up for hours on end, till I fell exhausted to sleep. It was never long before I had company of one kind or another. I saw many that were not alive in this realm and many more that had been but were living no more. Most were lonely, as no one could see or hear them. I just wasnt old enough to pass on messages and when I did get the adults to listen I was punished for lying. My real but quite dead father came more than once. He had camo fatigues on and died in Vietnam he told me. I was two. Its just better to sleep during the day, I am still convinced of this. I can remember being an infant, and a toddler. I never unclench till I am near a tropical beach with the sea lapping the shore. Something inside just relaxes and you know then and there that your every day life is filled with unbearable ugliness not felt in front of a warm ocean. You are brave my dear. I am deeply suspicious of any insitutional medical types and dont care if they have a label for me or not. They can shove their labels. I dont fit in with their society and the more I get to know of society the less I even want to assimilate. Who needs the small minded negative mob anyways? I do not. It takes a strong individual to not fear the solitude assocated with this "gift" we have been given. Imagine what it would be like to not hear what others are thinking? Its a definite edge over most of humanity. They are taught its a condition or disease, poor pathetic things. We know better but some days I too question my sanity. Its hard not too with so many "normal" people paraded in front of you every day in the media. I for one am glad you made the film. Good job.