my goodness...
That's what the new age agenda is.
I have to call you out on this, as i do with all 'abductees' i think either you are
a)a straight up liar,
b)you've gone somewhat mad because of the insanity on this planet(don't feel too bad, many are unable to maintain sanity in an insane society),
c)you've honestly had some very serious mind control. Be it through some sort of counter-intelligence information that effected your mind in such a way, or who knows, they are even capable of creating false memories in people, berzisnki said in 'between two ages' that they would be able to electronically control the minds of the public, right down to targeting specific individuals. I have long studied the abduction phenomenon. I still don't know for sure whether it's a complete fabrication, or if people are really experiencing what they think are abductions/obe's when they really aren't.
Or of course
d)there could be some rare medical condition, or chemical reaction to some of the garbage they've been putting into the evironment that causes these illusions, acting like a hallucinetic drug.
Honestly i think it's likely a or b in your case. Just my opinion of course.
This is what happens to the mind when the new age religion disables it.