I agree Ampgod...
but more importantly, am now wondering what on earth is going on here (PA/PC etc)??
I thought long and hard lastnight... after posting and retiring to bed... I thought this:
even though I do have reservations about being a member here due some of the behaviour/level of some members/mods here towards others.. and my own experience of being 'locked out' for no apparent reason for a day or two.. .. and even though I totally disagree with paying for a forum space..
fact is, I really felt for Kerry being unable to pay her rent / get food etc (as mentioned in one of two places by Mods)..... whatever my feelings about how PA is being run or managed, or some of the less than loving/humane posts by certain Avalon 'officials' (not the right word, but can't find the one I mean) ... I do know exactly what it's like to be faced with losing the roof over your head and faced with not knowing how on earth you're going to be able to get a small bag of basic groceries.. or eat that day... it's a horrible space to be in....
.. so anyway, I decided lastnight that I'd contribute a donation (not a lot, as I pretty much live hand to mouth each week myself) as I felt the true spirit of this was to help another in genuine need ... i.e. help kerry out of her lack of rent/bills/food situation... I felt to do this to help another human being, who has done much to bring info to the public, not becuase I go along with the idea of members paying for PA forum.. and I also felt maybe it might have been more beneficial/honest/helpful to tell us all the true picture i.e. Kerry's situation, so that we could make an informed choice about donating etc.. ??
Yet this morning when I came into the fundraiser thread, to make my pledge and explain why I was sending some money (after finding a way to send funds as I have no bank/credit cards etc).. I found that $60,000 is being spoken of as an immediate need... wow! And I wondered how my donating would make it's way to Kerry's rent/food bill and not be swallowed up by this now $60,000 needed fund ???
And.. more surprising to me, is that now the Fundraiser has been closed down!!!
and confused!!
After all the threads/posts/energy/effort/arguments and so on, of so many people, to try and find another solution than Paid Subs for PA, to finally do the fundraiser, and within 12 hours or so, find this is closed... 'eh, what's really happening here???!!
I just do not undertand anything in this place anymore (not that I ever really did I suppose)... nor feel safe/secure that there is transparency/truth in certain areas...
What on earth is happening with/really going on in this place???
I now feel so uncomfortable with it all I do feel to leave, not in any hissy-fit way or protest, nor to 'defect' to any other site, but because I just cannot fathom this place out anymore... it's intention or direction or integrity...
Kerry, I hope you get some support and help..
Best wishes to all !