I have been reading Mathews messages to his mother.There seems to be a connection here with me and what he says.I do have some rather odd memories and by chance Matthews books,and what is available free online,is bringing things together for me.I am a very logical thinking person even-though I seem to have my head up in the clouds at times.It just goes to show how we are lead in a direction and wham out of nowhere we become enlightened or rather,find something we can relate to.Your post is nice.This could be your door way.Any how,This is the link to matthews books for whomever is courious.
http://www.matthewbooks.com/store/default.asp