[raulduke]

I've felt like I'd hit a fully saturated point before, where I "knew" all that I wanted to and the rest couldn't possibly be of much worth to me compared to what I "knew" then. It was all filler behind the "fact" that there is a "new world order" and "mayan apocalypse", so what else matters?

All I can say is that I'm glad I decided to look further into these things, which is why several words and phrases are in quotations above.

As far as the conspiracy stuff making it hard for you to live your life, my advice would be to try to appreciate each moment and know that the future is not set in stone. Anything can happen, you could die tomorrow or in fifty years, what matters is what you do in the current moment. Don't let life pass you by while you are making plans.