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Originally Posted by waitinginthewings
....feeling. Its a conundrum....how can I be awake & aware and yet feel like I am not awake at all. Is there more than 1 level of awakening, I wonder. Am I about to hurtle myself into another level? So as I contemplated these feelings & thoughts around this, I arrived at this possibility, not necessarily a conclusion & Iwill continue to work on it.
Tks for listening/reading.
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Dear Avalonians,
The title of this thread caught my eye.
I live very close to where the conference was, but it was like there was a wall preventing me from going. I wasn't stoned or altered in the chemical sense, but I would find my self diving down streets that led in the wrong direction (I grew up in LA and know it well... Burbank, too) and worst all, had three... count 'em... three minor accidents. No damage beyond scratches, but it could have been worse.
It was so strange. I started getting sicker to closer I got to the conference. I wanted to go sooooo bad. I had to turn back least I get someone hurt or spread some creepy disease.
Conferences have their own enrgy... that is, they seen to open a very wide doorway for whatever engergy gets there first or dominates others. I have no explanation for it. 14 years ago at a big UFO shindig at an LAX hotel, as a sold-out lecture disburst (and before Jay Leno/NBC showed up to make fun of everybody), dozens of people felt tense and paranoid as they walked past about 30 feet of hallway. There was no explanation for it. It was just some negative force field of some kind. It was like we all had a lead weight over our heads and/or felt aches in our stomachs.
Overall, the event was bursting with synergistic meetings and connections of all kinds. I would have given my cat's-eye marble bag (the Aggies, too!) for the green light to go to the Awake and Aware event. My one theory is that this little 60s era transistor radio would blow a fuse in the presence of power stations like Miriam D., David W., and the whole wonderful lot of speakers and Avalonians. Who would pay for the hole in the ceiling? What would you tell NORAD when you find which cloud I'm on and find a rope long enough to reach?
These are important questions for some of us trying to attend conferences - especially Project Avalon conferences (they're too good!!!).
Paul