Mmm, Okay, it was the death of one my children that catapulted me into the search, the journey. Passionate, ****** off anger, a demand to know, to understand what the hell it was all about!!!
Read everything I could lay my hands on, talked to everyone and anyone about the meaning of life, reincarnation. Tried to join groups of like minded people but that didnt work. A very, very solitary journey. Kept on reading, reading and more reading. Gradually understanding came. Read the white book and went to Ramtha Event in 89. Lots of answers there, also lots of despair. Came home and spent the next few years going through lots of stuff, dramas, hopelessness, but at the same time reading, studying and then applying, experimenting with a new way of being. The Inner Self growing ever so gradually.
Every now and then I would go back to core teaching books that resonated with me and if I had changed/expanded, the books would be different. New understandings would arise, magically. Applying what I had learned was the key to expansion of consciousness.
Went back to the Ramtha School in 03 in Aust. Marvellous! Huge progress there but great challenges getting my head around quantum physics /science. The changes in consciousness, the expansion, the learning has completely transformed my life, my outer circumstances. Still challenges, but I have the tools now and its up to me. Powerful, peaceful inner self. Still much to learn and apply, but am grateful for everything and everybody who was part of my learning and also to the fabulous friends and loved ones who are my future.
Love and Light
Carmen
