I don't know that I ever realised that I was awake. I never thought of myself as gifted, still don't really. I do know that I have, since as far back as I can remember, always thought of things and seen things very differently to most people including my direct family. This caused a lot of pain in my life.
I was always a loner, and still am really, which was always misinterpereted as aloofness and being stand-offish. This was never the case. The fact of the matter is that I was painfully shy however. Also from a very young age I was a fastidious reader across a broad spectrum of subjects and had a wide range of interests. I do know that I never fitted in with my age group and wondered at why kids were always after carnal pleasure. I just thought that I was weird as I found kids my age to be incredibly immature.
I lived in my head a lot, was always lost in thought and caught a good few smacks across the head for day-dreaming in class. Oh yes, I was always the clown, and have always had a very keen sense of humour. Strange for a shy person but that's the way of it.
These days? Well, I have overcome my shyness. I spread literature around far and wide, speak about things spiritual at any given opportunity and have grown comfortable enough in my own skin to be who I am without apology. This has only taken 50 plus years !!!!
