I grow weary

[Ceilidh_Madigan@yahoo.com]

lockNload, your initial words sound familiar to me to. I find myself not desiring a future of starting a family in this society, however I love my family now more than anything. My suggestion, along with seeking your bliss and giving of yourself, is perhaps learning a musical instrument, if you don't know one already. This could be your voice, or a tin whistle/recorder is pretty easy to learn. If it were not for my saxophone, so much unspeakable wrath and joy would build like a hurricane over the gulf. I let the winds (literally) out, and find myself in the peaceful eye... for a time. Our sensitivities to the 'wrongs' of our mortal beings will never go away... I too had to learn hate at a late age from "friends". I have learned that their hate and fear is the stone on their shoulders. And that they, too, would rather do without... if they only knew how. I want you to know that though we have not met, I feel a similar weak and fumbling grip on that bliss, our bliss is flippant and fleeting, but true and manifestable. Someday, we WILL leave this place. Let us manifest that bliss and share while we can. You are a good person! Walk with us! Good luck!