Of Sleeping Gods

Stargazer1965 · 12-23-2008, 02:46 PM

I have been alive for a year now. It started with 9/11 and went on till I am the human wreck. I broke down the belief system I held onto for my first 42 years and here I sit with nothing "tangible" to believe in. Each time I read a little more or watched a little more the old me died. Then in the end everything I used to think was concrete and immovable started to warp and bend. Now I am the human wreck...or so i thought. Believe....such an easy word. A buddy of mine is real religious and used to try to get me to come to his church all the time. One day we were in line to get something to eat and I turned to him and said " it's not what you believe in....it's just that you believe" I didn't understand why I said it or how I knew it was true....now I know. In business I believed that if you put enough effort or will power into a project you could accomplish almost anything. I was right because I believed hard enough I could do almost anything. I sequestered that to the small world of business and accomplished a lot but could not follow a "master". That is to say if someone told me I had to do something the told "well that's just the way it is" Something in me couldn't accept that as an answer and I was not anyone's slave. I rebelled and I suffer for it and my family suffers for it but in the end I believe I'm right and that's really all I need because going back to what I said " it's not what you believe in....it's just that you believe" I believed I was not a slave...and I wasn't. My family looks at me like I failed or somehow that I'm not a good provider but I am. I'll teach my 4 year old that she isn't a slave and if she believes in something hard enough it will come true. How much more magic could you give as an inheritance? I know there are hard times coming and I look to the skies for warnings...I scan the heavens all the time for a sign. I feel like an animal before an earthquake...plugged into some primitive warning system knowing that it could be any minute. I read this or watch that....Planet x or our passing through the equator of the galaxy. Whatever it is it will change us forever or damn us forever. What side do you want to be on? I relish change as I look around..religion won't save you...government won't save you....ETs won't save you. Only that you believe that you can be saved will save you. Everyone told you that you must kneel in the sight of god....They who wrote that should kneel before you. We ....me you and everyone you see are the Sleeping Gods.

12-23-2008, 02:46 PM	#1
Stargazer1965 Hall Monitor Join Date: Dec 2008 Location: Midwest Posts: 733	Of Sleeping Gods I have been alive for a year now. It started with 9/11 and went on till I am the human wreck. I broke down the belief system I held onto for my first 42 years and here I sit with nothing "tangible" to believe in. Each time I read a little more or watched a little more the old me died. Then in the end everything I used to think was concrete and immovable started to warp and bend. Now I am the human wreck...or so i thought. Believe....such an easy word. A buddy of mine is real religious and used to try to get me to come to his church all the time. One day we were in line to get something to eat and I turned to him and said " it's not what you believe in....it's just that you believe" I didn't understand why I said it or how I knew it was true....now I know. In business I believed that if you put enough effort or will power into a project you could accomplish almost anything. I was right because I believed hard enough I could do almost anything. I sequestered that to the small world of business and accomplished a lot but could not follow a "master". That is to say if someone told me I had to do something the told "well that's just the way it is" Something in me couldn't accept that as an answer and I was not anyone's slave. I rebelled and I suffer for it and my family suffers for it but in the end I believe I'm right and that's really all I need because going back to what I said " it's not what you believe in....it's just that you believe" I believed I was not a slave...and I wasn't. My family looks at me like I failed or somehow that I'm not a good provider but I am. I'll teach my 4 year old that she isn't a slave and if she believes in something hard enough it will come true. How much more magic could you give as an inheritance? I know there are hard times coming and I look to the skies for warnings...I scan the heavens all the time for a sign. I feel like an animal before an earthquake...plugged into some primitive warning system knowing that it could be any minute. I read this or watch that....Planet x or our passing through the equator of the galaxy. Whatever it is it will change us forever or damn us forever. What side do you want to be on? I relish change as I look around..religion won't save you...government won't save you....ETs won't save you. Only that you believe that you can be saved will save you. Everyone told you that you must kneel in the sight of god....They who wrote that should kneel before you. We ....me you and everyone you see are the Sleeping Gods.