Staying Aware

Czymra · 01-31-2009, 08:40 PM

Hello Avalonians,

Since thrusting ahead with a spiritual afterburner over the last months (those who seek shall find huh?) I now find myself somewhat in a routine ditch.

The Matrix bores me which in turn makes me retreat more and more into my mind. That isn't healthy. I lead a few public and private discussions regarding this issue, even read books about it but I just haven't figured it out.

In order to raise one's frequency, it seems that one has to be constantly aware and when I managed that I think I felt results that seem convincing. Being aware of those details allows me to see what I couldn't see before, not just the ordinary but also 'energies'.
Moreover, it allowed me to engage with what surrounds me AS IS, not as I categorised it in my head. People were seen for who they are, not of another race, not stinking, not angry, they just were with that quality, but I attache little value to it.

When boredom sets in this all gets a lot more diffi-cult. I soar through daily life and less and less often I remember to actually be aware, to breathe... I just forget!
I thus wonder if you have found any strategy or mindset that works for you.

What cracks my brain is this:
If not my mind, then what is it that 'polices' my judgements, my tasks? To me it's the mind policing itself, one program to constantly rewrite the others, line by line. However, it seems necessary to move on a higher level where the mind is simply shut down. I do meditate a lot in life situations, at work, on transport but I seldom fall into deep meditation states. I know all the reasons however.

The only real thing to do seems to let go of all language, be they letters, words, symbols, sounds, concepts, they all just trap and diminish true meaning.
But hey, one has to earn one's living. I can't do the Yogi yet.

01-31-2009, 08:40 PM	#1
Czymra Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Nov 2008 Location: Germany Posts: 1,151	Staying Aware Hello Avalonians, Since thrusting ahead with a spiritual afterburner over the last months (those who seek shall find huh?) I now find myself somewhat in a routine ditch. The Matrix bores me which in turn makes me retreat more and more into my mind. That isn't healthy. I lead a few public and private discussions regarding this issue, even read books about it but I just haven't figured it out. In order to raise one's frequency, it seems that one has to be constantly aware and when I managed that I think I felt results that seem convincing. Being aware of those details allows me to see what I couldn't see before, not just the ordinary but also 'energies'. Moreover, it allowed me to engage with what surrounds me AS IS, not as I categorised it in my head. People were seen for who they are, not of another race, not stinking, not angry, they just were with that quality, but I attache little value to it. When boredom sets in this all gets a lot more diffi-cult. I soar through daily life and less and less often I remember to actually be aware, to breathe... I just forget! I thus wonder if you have found any strategy or mindset that works for you. What cracks my brain is this: If not my mind, then what is it that 'polices' my judgements, my tasks? To me it's the mind policing itself, one program to constantly rewrite the others, line by line. However, it seems necessary to move on a higher level where the mind is simply shut down. I do meditate a lot in life situations, at work, on transport but I seldom fall into deep meditation states. I know all the reasons however. The only real thing to do seems to let go of all language, be they letters, words, symbols, sounds, concepts, they all just trap and diminish true meaning. But hey, one has to earn one's living. I can't do the Yogi yet.