Pretending to Sleep

ForsakenFalcon · 09-07-2008, 10:12 PM

Simpleist way to explaine this.

Majority of us here know there are generaly 2 aspect of spirits with in People.
One being that of the sleeper's and the othere of the awakened.

Sadly I'm stuck in the middle & I know so due to the fact some form of entity is allways taunting Me about it with in My dream's, Not in a nasty way but the way it was said it kind of made Me want to prove them wrong.

Quote = "How do You awaken something that only pretend's to sleep"?

I wish I knew, I'v allways known when crap hit the fan (can i say crap here? lol) That I would as I use to call it "Snap" & when those moments have come My Physicaly and Mental state is highly ampliefied due to it I'v maniged to save Myself and othere People from real harm by useing words alone.
Exsample when I was 16 I got muged by two 20something year old's and after they got what they wanted they then wanted to drag Me over to a Chinema carpark to do god knows what to Me ( This was around 2-3am I sadly got sepurated from My group ),

Anyways after they got what they wanted and still tryed to continue to beat the crap out of Me, I was able to get a Surge of energy and force My self to stand again (they kicked me from behind in the knees so when I knew I was being attacked I was allready on the ground ) and I remember telling them along the lines of You got what You were after there isn't any point in continueing to beat up on Me and there was defanently no reason to try drag Me over to a dark car park.

I remember the looks on there Face's & they honestly were shocked about something and started to jog away while screaming out I had better not try get the police invoulded, Surpriseingly not only was I able to talk Myself out of getting seriously beaten up or worse, I'm glade I didn't feel a single onzce of pain and I was able to walk home stright after.

That incident didn't realy get to Me untill the next day after My day to day personality came back.

Sorry for draging this on what I'm trying to say I guess is, " I realy wish I was awakened 100% of the time, Then things would be alot easyer and seem a hell less manipulitive "

Kate · 09-07-2008, 10:19 PM

Forsaken....I totally understand the confusion your experiencing..please email me and i will discuss futher....

I am just going to set up a new thread for HELP/ADVICE

please add your quote there...many people will respond ..i am sure!

there must be many who are having probs adjusting...
you are doing just fine! keep close to people who understand, yet have compassion and friendliness to those who dont!

Andre · 09-10-2008, 05:20 AM

This world can be very brutal and cruel at times. I truly feel your pain. I sometimes wish that I could wave my hand and in an instant the world would be absorbed into a consciousness of flexibility, compromise, love and care for one another.

I will pray for you Falcon. Know that you are not forsaken. Stay sacred and believe in love.

ForsakenFalcon · 09-10-2008, 05:44 AM

Thanks for Your word's Andre.

& yes this place can be a brutal place indeed. Sadly like I'm assumeing quiet a few othere people. As a child I was very loveing and careing and optermistic and positive, but by the time I hit 12 and due to the experience's I was forced to face I started to have to distrust People in general and not geting motivated to wanting to help any one elles due to previous abuse.

I belive I was more spiritualy awake befor 12 because prior to that age I saw and heared many unexplaineable thing's & by age 12 I had to change to fight in (I'v allways lived in messed up neigbourhoods).

As for if I am Forsakened or not lol. All I can say is sometime's it would of been much easyer to live a mediocur life and have complete stabilitie.

09-07-2008, 10:12 PM	#1
ForsakenFalcon Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: Hideing From The Clandestine Dark Suit's! Posts: 190	Pretending to Sleep Simpleist way to explaine this. Majority of us here know there are generaly 2 aspect of spirits with in People. One being that of the sleeper's and the othere of the awakened. Sadly I'm stuck in the middle & I know so due to the fact some form of entity is allways taunting Me about it with in My dream's, Not in a nasty way but the way it was said it kind of made Me want to prove them wrong. Quote = "How do You awaken something that only pretend's to sleep"? I wish I knew, I'v allways known when crap hit the fan (can i say crap here? lol) That I would as I use to call it "Snap" & when those moments have come My Physicaly and Mental state is highly ampliefied due to it I'v maniged to save Myself and othere People from real harm by useing words alone. Exsample when I was 16 I got muged by two 20something year old's and after they got what they wanted they then wanted to drag Me over to a Chinema carpark to do god knows what to Me ( This was around 2-3am I sadly got sepurated from My group ), Anyways after they got what they wanted and still tryed to continue to beat the crap out of Me, I was able to get a Surge of energy and force My self to stand again (they kicked me from behind in the knees so when I knew I was being attacked I was allready on the ground ) and I remember telling them along the lines of You got what You were after there isn't any point in continueing to beat up on Me and there was defanently no reason to try drag Me over to a dark car park. I remember the looks on there Face's & they honestly were shocked about something and started to jog away while screaming out I had better not try get the police invoulded, Surpriseingly not only was I able to talk Myself out of getting seriously beaten up or worse, I'm glade I didn't feel a single onzce of pain and I was able to walk home stright after. That incident didn't realy get to Me untill the next day after My day to day personality came back. Sorry for draging this on what I'm trying to say I guess is, " I realy wish I was awakened 100% of the time, Then things would be alot easyer and seem a hell less manipulitive "

09-07-2008, 10:19 PM	#2
Kate Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: currently UK, searching for a safe relocation in next year Posts: 319	Re: Pretending to Sleep Forsaken....I totally understand the confusion your experiencing..please email me and i will discuss futher.... I am just going to set up a new thread for HELP/ADVICE please add your quote there...many people will respond ..i am sure! there must be many who are having probs adjusting... you are doing just fine! keep close to people who understand, yet have compassion and friendliness to those who dont!

09-10-2008, 05:20 AM	#3
Andre Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Posts: 182	Re: Pretending to Sleep This world can be very brutal and cruel at times. I truly feel your pain. I sometimes wish that I could wave my hand and in an instant the world would be absorbed into a consciousness of flexibility, compromise, love and care for one another. I will pray for you Falcon. Know that you are not forsaken. Stay sacred and believe in love.

09-10-2008, 05:44 AM	#4
ForsakenFalcon Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Location: Hideing From The Clandestine Dark Suit's! Posts: 190	Re: Pretending to Sleep Thanks for Your word's Andre. & yes this place can be a brutal place indeed. Sadly like I'm assumeing quiet a few othere people. As a child I was very loveing and careing and optermistic and positive, but by the time I hit 12 and due to the experience's I was forced to face I started to have to distrust People in general and not geting motivated to wanting to help any one elles due to previous abuse. I belive I was more spiritualy awake befor 12 because prior to that age I saw and heared many unexplaineable thing's & by age 12 I had to change to fight in (I'v allways lived in messed up neigbourhoods). As for if I am Forsakened or not lol. All I can say is sometime's it would of been much easyer to live a mediocur life and have complete stabilitie.