[tpmputterman]

I feel very bored myself!!! I think my lesson in this personality for me has been to awken to the truth of ones self and the world.

I still feel like you, confused in the process. I feel like I understand the purpose of the process, but don't really agree with it all the time.

Why should I have to deal with this level of existence because I want so much to learn and grow at others levels where money, hate ect.. don't exist.

I often ask myself to take me away because I am ready to go, very ready to move on "so to speak" I feel bored as you do!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes I wonder even though most of my thoughts are good and I have gotten away from fear, hate, judgement ect... for the most part, what does it even matter??? Because I still have to deal with money problems, mood swings ect... I used to think that the better my mind the better my life got.
Latlet my mind is better but my life around me suffers and I ask why??

Thats the part that I am most confused and bored with