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Old 01-18-2009, 12:57 AM   #21
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Default Re: Belgian ground crew (french and dutch)

Originally Posted by ormagus View Post
I don't meditate. I'm having troubles with 'mind control' (yeah...)
Here's a copy/paste of a post I wrote about what I experienced not too long ago:


I have been on this group for a few years except the last two mainly
during which I experienced horrible problems that are still going on.
I recently resubscribed, plan to make and work on m-state again, and
wanted to say hi and something else I find worth sharing.

I could go on and on about how I am totally under mind control that
goes beyond what is written on the net about MK-ultra and related and
goes beyond being a psychosis. A digital mind anyone?

I want to share something special that happened to me 4 times by now.

Probably this won't be believed but anyhow.

I've seen through my eyelids. With my eyes closed. Absolutely closed.
It's not a matter of having seen through your eyes almost closed, or
mentally having reconstructed what I saw a fraction of a second before
I closed my eyes. It's like seeing with eyes open. Like the light of

Happened four times by now.

The first time it happened I took nothing. No gold. No drugs.
I was in a dark closet, with eyes closed, and at first I felt a
strange sensation and like a burst in my chest throughout which
something like yellow light burst. I saw it in my mind and felt it.
Then all at once I saw the dark closet and thought I had opened my
eyes but realized I didn't and opened them afterwards.
This happened I think in juli or august.

Second time happened last december when I downed a whole bottle of Joe
Lello's golden dew and took a hit of smoked DMT. Very little. Then I
saw through my closed eyelids for maybe a few seconds.

Then later on that day, a few hours later when it was evening I went
outside in my 'garden' and saw as if my eyes were open. I don't
remember the exact detail how it happened as I was busy trying to get
rid of what I believe is mind control, but it happened again that I
saw through my eyelids and I definitely do remember seeing outside
clearly with closed eyes.

Fourth time happened even later that day. I actually phoned the
hospital because I was afraid I would bite my tongue. I basically see
digital looking images, hear voices and sounds like a full psycho, and
feel like my whole nervous system and brain are totally under control
of something like a supercomputer. I was scared that whatever happened
would make me spasm my tongue muscle and I wanted something to calm me
down. And oh yeah I saw images of 'entities' in an agressive
mode/stance towards me. It's like I am dealing with artificial
intelligence that knows the in and outs of the body like light years
beyond what science knows.
Anyway I phoned the ambulance and lo and behold on the way to the
hospital again I saw through my eyelids, inside the ambulance. Then I
noticed something interesting. While in the hospital on some kind of
bed, I noticed black light, yes black colored light (black as a
colored light not absence of light) hazing what I saw through my
eyelids, and then I saw white light and still through my eyelids but
with a haze and not clearly anymore. The white light definitely
diminished and hazed the see-with-eyes-closed sight I had.

After that I haven't experienced it again.

I thought I'd share it because I think it's interesting. I don't know
if it's something monoatomic gold related. Maybe.

I understand you are going through some stressfull times.
I do believe meditation would be of great help to you. It's all about finding who you really are as a being as distinct from your biological vehicle which is your body and the field of the mind.
This will allow you to find inner peace.
"If you have inner peace, nobody can force you to be a slave to the outer reality."

Also for the time being staying away from drugs and alcohol as these stir up things in the emotional body as well as in the mind making it an additional burden to handle which can become quite confusing.

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