The addicts dilemma is 'How much is too much, how little is not enough?'. By fighting the situation you will sink deeper into it. Accept that you are addicted and give up the struggle as those of us in the know have (No better, no worse than you - just woken up to the quicksand that is fear and that we are who we are, not who we want to be - which is another addiction: Wealth, fame, status - the urge for attention, safety, certainty all tie us down and the only way to avoid it is to accept that nothing is certain, nothing is safe and attention, wealth, power should be earned and not worshiped or they become worthless: Service not sanctity (sacred cows/ outer appearance)).
