Many of you are quite negative...I guess I am blessed in my life.
My father passed when I was 12 y.o., went to hospital on Christmas Eve, and died 30 days later.
My mother passed on Christmas Day when I was 18. I am 36 now... I still love Holidays, Life, etc.
You guys can come over to my house on Christmas and re-capture some joy.
Stop looking for the negative.
Sounds like your inner-child is dying...LIVE people.