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Originally Posted by Kukulcanessa
the person who wrote this topic sounds like they read "the secret" which is a bunch of garbage
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Since everyone continues to answer this thread, which I almost regret posting in the first place, let me clarify myself.
I have never read The Secret. The mainstream success of it in itself put me off. I am instantly wary of anything the general masses get dewy-eyed over since they are, en masse, lead purposely astray.
That being said, please do not judge me. You are all holding a picture of me in your heads of a greasy spolied kid holding my hand out. The only reason I even ask for money at all is there are few places these days that don't require it. And believe me, if I could have gone to live in a hut in the forest somewhere, I would have. As it was, I was born white and in America. I am making the best of it.
Money is NOT the root of all evil - as I used to believe. Money is a tool, and a useful one in its earlier days. It has been corrupted - as has belief without solid proof, trust in authority and love for children. All of these have been twisted at one point or another for the good of an individual instead of the good of all.
As a result, I had spent MANY years loathing money with all my heart, hating the very idea of God and distrusting anyone of this modern world who stepped up to lead. I always smelt corruption first. That's not the case every time, I have come to learn. And God is here in me, letting me think as I will but much preferring I just allow universal love to work in my life instead.
I am 23 years old. I am in a female body - that's my picture to the left - and I have loved other female bodies since age 16. I have always fought against what I am "supposed" to do because it has always felt forced, coerced, a lie. But when I hated money and fought against it, I got none. When I hated myself, abusers were sent to me who hated me as well. When I hated 9-5 clock punching jobs, I was bored and useless and out of work. Now I work for the pure joy of it, doing something I love to do and not feeling like a slave.
I only began my awakening a year ago, although my mother began the groundwork when I was a child. I am an old soul. I have healing hands, in her words, which is why she put me in a Reiki class. I am not a novice to the energy of the planet and the love she must be shown. Trouble is, almost everyone else is only paying her attention cuz she's getting ******.
I am learning the power that exists in the universe, and my own place in it. I am learning that abundance is what this physical life is all about, in simple terms. The universe wants to provide for us, if we give it half a chance. I have never gone hungry but I have gone without other things. I'M NOT MARTYRING MYSELF - especially since it was probably my own fault to begin with.
You cannot demand specifically for what you want then sit with your arms folded, waiting for it to appear. I GET THAT. I posted this thread because if I had funds like some on this forum do, I would spread them around MYSELF. Its been my dearest ambition to open an animal shelter and an orphanage - it is in me to WANT TO HELP. I was appealing to that in others, that's all. It was not greedy or even needy. It was simply a chance, if anyone so had the inkling, to extend the hand of brotherhood.
Some of you must know how it feels to be utterly alone.
To be hated because of appearance or beliefs or LOVE, of all things!
This forum is salve to the soul for SO MANY of us!
We are not alone!
By many accounts, the time when we will be able to communicate with only our minds is fast coming.
I am learning, I am learning as fast as my spiritual being is allowing.
It would be easier if there was money around.
People get so touchy about this subject, even enlightened people which I admit is a little disappointing.
I get that many of us are not in what you would call abundance. Few are, in my opinion, since abundance is more than cash.
I am abundant is many things.
Cash is one of the easiest, clearest, and legally binding ways to get to my complete idea of abundance. Which is this:
Land that belongs to us. Gardens that feed us and do not rape Gaia. Animals that do not flee from us in fear. They are as much our brothers and sisters as the neighbor next door. Spiritual connection to Source. Free, renewable energy. Freedom from servitude. Self sustainability. Equality - call is communism, anarchy, whatever. Do you see where this is going? Unless I fall into a large amount of money or join a community (yes I know there is a forum for this) this will be difficult for me to manifest. I was asking for HELP, that's ALL.
JUST HELP
NOT SCORN OR PITY
Some of the links and books and ideas helped and I HAVE THANKED YOU.
WHY ARE SOME OF YOU STILL BERATING ME FOR THIS?
PEACE, MY BROTHERS, PLEASE
The idea to join forces and resources against these very troubled times shortly ahead seemed like a very good idea at the time. Made perfect sense in my own head.
SO I REQUEST THAT YOU OFFER ONLY HELP, OF ANY KIND
I love you all, every one of you. You are me and we are us and I am ALL.
Let's not squabble, m'kay?
