susan, I managed to catch your long and eloquent post late last night pre edit. I was wondering if there was anything useful I could say to respond.
Now I see that heartfelt message reduced to saying posting on Camelot/Avalon does not pay, but honestly, whoever here thought it would?
I vaguely remember you as "white lotus flower" on Tsarion's forum, anyhow, I remember you also saying you were friends with him. Did you never experience his extreme distate for altruism? I think what that means to me is put your own life vest on first.
Were you giving to get something? and you didn't get it? I don't understand why you feel so let down, no one asked you to post so much or take time away from what you needed to do to create a solid base.
I sincerely hope you can use your time away from here to do just that . Sorting out your house /business problems may be easier than you thought when you give it your full attention, and you may find the help you need right where you are.
The whole idea of the ground crew does make me laugh, I basically have one friend from years of internet interactions, but that is no guarantee we would get along in person or that they would help me in reality.
Sometimes the bitterest disappointments put our feet on the ground, which is what we need if our heads are in the stars.
Very very best of luck to you in the changes ahead, you may find help is closer than you think.
My job? recyclopath. if it aint broke, I don't want it...
