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Old 12-02-2009, 09:52 PM   #22
Halvor
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Default Re: Support for Victims of MKULTRA Projects

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Originally Posted by eleni View Post
You are very brave to have done that yourself. Many see their death in this lifetime- did you see that?
No, from the immediate impression my experience was botched. I had no psychedelic experience and remained conscious. For five hours I was immobile, only able to roll over to vomit in a bucket, which I did about every ten mintes for that entire time period. I had asked a friend to sit with me, but he had taken some recreational drugs and soon fell asleep. No help there.

What I think happened reflecting on the experience since was that every time an issue was about to surface I instead of drifting into a vision became nauseous and thus retained consciousness. Why this happened I don't know but it could be a protective device due to the nature or context of my memories. It could also be that the alkaloids had gone bad due to too long storage time, because I read that later about the batch from which my bark powder had originated.

I think the excerpt you provided was highly informative. It was much there I wasn't aware of.
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