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SoldierOfTruth808 · 09-07-2008, 11:24 PM

Aloha! Before I even begin to introduce myself id like say....WHOA, you know I chose an eye as my Avatar just on a whim. My Avatar is actually the eye of Magneto who is an X-Men comic character, for those of you who are not fans or aware. Anyway, as I began browsing through the general board I noticed alot of people chose eyes for their Avatars...what an interesting coincidence. Anyone have any insite on eyes?

Anywho, My name is Roland. I will be 26 as of the 14th of this month, im from Hawaii, and finding myself right smack dab in the middle of what many are calling the quarter life crisis. Kids are graduating from college, completing several years of service in a work force or just realizing that we are about to be 30 in a few years. You look around at what some have become by this time and begin to measure yourself against that, you ask yourself "What the hell is it that IVE done?"....for some this is a really depressing period of exsistance. I hit rock bottom when my 3 year relationship fell on its face. It left me in a whirlwind of Chaos, with nothing to believe in and a loss of interest in all of my previous passions. Im not a person who sees suicide as an answer to things. But I suppose in a way I had already commited Mental Suicide, because I shut myself off completely. No longer experiencing life, not even caring if life was a thing to be experienced. I wallowed on this way for months, picking myself apart in a black hole of depression...but also in a sort of meditation that in retrospect I really needed. It wasnt until one day at work one of my coworkers was watching a movie on his break that was talking about the possible root of the "One God Religions" as I call them and some realities about our government. He was watching the film Zeitgeist... Some of you are probably rolling your eyes, and some are nodding in agreement im sure.... I dont care this was only my doorway. It was the first information of any kind to spark any sort of feeling in me for MONTHS. After I finished watching it, my mind was locked in thought about the truth of Religion and Spirituality, our Government and its real roots and backings, even the truth of US and who WE are and where we come from. I took Zeitgiest in conjunction with another film I had seen, it was a PBS documentary on string theory called "The Elegant Universe" which basically explained spirituality using science and quantum physics all the while not really knowing that it was doing just that. I just went over these ideas in my head over and over placing my experiences with the themes I had learned. Seeing how they connect, seeing how they can be possible, seeing TRUTH in them...and believe, im a virgo this is a thought function that im REALLY good at and have accepted as a real human ability that I trust in...intuition if you will. I picked them apart in my brain until I had little more to think of...and then I was hungry again. A friend of mine was farther along in his studies of TRUTH than I was, and he was the one that knew about Project Camelot. The name just struck me to begin with, as a boy tales of King Arthur and the proud city of Camelot were a big part of my life. Id swing around a broom stick in my backyard pretending to be one of the knights haha. Anyway, I took the jump and checked the site out. It sparked the same flame that the combination of Zeitgeist and The Elegant Universe had. Since then, with all the things I have learned, I found my way here a much different person than I was almost 8 months ago.

I marvel at the coincidences that carried me here, or maybe not so coincidental. I could not resist officially becoming apart of this community and I feel proud and definetly privileged to be around so many great minds. Im still such a young man, and I definetly dont even know the half of what the TRUTH really is. What I do know is that for what little I know of the truth and for what that little bit has opened in me I am willing to lay myself down and even fight to protect the truth and to offer truth to all humanity who deserve to know the truth by virtue of just BREATHING and EXSISTING on this planet. That is why I chose Soldier Of Truth as my name.

Well I think ive used up alot of my hot air... If you made it through this post...WOW you definetly have patience. I hope to be involved in many discussions and MOSTLY I hope to learn much much more....im a sponge..an empty cup.... a blank sheet of paper... a artist pallete....an infant in a wide wide world... an empty house with white wall interior....you get the point

Peace,
Roland K

09-07-2008, 11:24 PM	#136
SoldierOfTruth808 Avalon Senior Member Join Date: Sep 2008 Posts: 35	An introduction Aloha! Before I even begin to introduce myself id like say....WHOA, you know I chose an eye as my Avatar just on a whim. My Avatar is actually the eye of Magneto who is an X-Men comic character, for those of you who are not fans or aware. Anyway, as I began browsing through the general board I noticed alot of people chose eyes for their Avatars...what an interesting coincidence. Anyone have any insite on eyes? Anywho, My name is Roland. I will be 26 as of the 14th of this month, im from Hawaii, and finding myself right smack dab in the middle of what many are calling the quarter life crisis. Kids are graduating from college, completing several years of service in a work force or just realizing that we are about to be 30 in a few years. You look around at what some have become by this time and begin to measure yourself against that, you ask yourself "What the hell is it that IVE done?"....for some this is a really depressing period of exsistance. I hit rock bottom when my 3 year relationship fell on its face. It left me in a whirlwind of Chaos, with nothing to believe in and a loss of interest in all of my previous passions. Im not a person who sees suicide as an answer to things. But I suppose in a way I had already commited Mental Suicide, because I shut myself off completely. No longer experiencing life, not even caring if life was a thing to be experienced. I wallowed on this way for months, picking myself apart in a black hole of depression...but also in a sort of meditation that in retrospect I really needed. It wasnt until one day at work one of my coworkers was watching a movie on his break that was talking about the possible root of the "One God Religions" as I call them and some realities about our government. He was watching the film Zeitgeist... Some of you are probably rolling your eyes, and some are nodding in agreement im sure.... I dont care this was only my doorway. It was the first information of any kind to spark any sort of feeling in me for MONTHS. After I finished watching it, my mind was locked in thought about the truth of Religion and Spirituality, our Government and its real roots and backings, even the truth of US and who WE are and where we come from. I took Zeitgiest in conjunction with another film I had seen, it was a PBS documentary on string theory called "The Elegant Universe" which basically explained spirituality using science and quantum physics all the while not really knowing that it was doing just that. I just went over these ideas in my head over and over placing my experiences with the themes I had learned. Seeing how they connect, seeing how they can be possible, seeing TRUTH in them...and believe, im a virgo this is a thought function that im REALLY good at and have accepted as a real human ability that I trust in...intuition if you will. I picked them apart in my brain until I had little more to think of...and then I was hungry again. A friend of mine was farther along in his studies of TRUTH than I was, and he was the one that knew about Project Camelot. The name just struck me to begin with, as a boy tales of King Arthur and the proud city of Camelot were a big part of my life. Id swing around a broom stick in my backyard pretending to be one of the knights haha. Anyway, I took the jump and checked the site out. It sparked the same flame that the combination of Zeitgeist and The Elegant Universe had. Since then, with all the things I have learned, I found my way here a much different person than I was almost 8 months ago. I marvel at the coincidences that carried me here, or maybe not so coincidental. I could not resist officially becoming apart of this community and I feel proud and definetly privileged to be around so many great minds. Im still such a young man, and I definetly dont even know the half of what the TRUTH really is. What I do know is that for what little I know of the truth and for what that little bit has opened in me I am willing to lay myself down and even fight to protect the truth and to offer truth to all humanity who deserve to know the truth by virtue of just BREATHING and EXSISTING on this planet. That is why I chose Soldier Of Truth as my name. Well I think ive used up alot of my hot air... If you made it through this post...WOW you definetly have patience. I hope to be involved in many discussions and MOSTLY I hope to learn much much more....im a sponge..an empty cup.... a blank sheet of paper... a artist pallete....an infant in a wide wide world... an empty house with white wall interior....you get the point Peace, Roland K Last edited by SoldierOfTruth808; 09-07-2008 at 11:28 PM.