[Zeddo]

If I look at some of the threads and, on the face of things, react, I fall short and allow the flesh to control that which is truly me.

If I read and react immediately without due consideration, it is out of the essence of flesh that I do so. This causes me more often than not to forget that I am a light being first, flesh being last.

It is difficult when one has been taught from childhood that he is flesh first, governed by an angry god with vengeance and jealousy on "his" mind. Even in our religious teaching that which is a very VERY important part of us is precluded, namely the Feminine.

I strive to move forward and yet in-spite of myself I fail. However, that is when I look through the eyes of man. When I look within, I see that there are changes, I see that there is hope and that indeed, the powers that rule this system, those powers that are "seated in high places, those powers who are indeed not flesh and blood" can only rule for a season and a time.

In the context of infinity, this is nothing, a mere single grain taken from the beaches of all of the universes. It is nothing, and yet to us, it is everything.

In this context, is living in the now correct? There has to be more as the "now" is pure insanity. The Now is the configuration of this life and this life only. The now is a culmination of this life's experiences and will soon fade away and be nothing, swept away to never be remembered. Unfortunately there is a juxtaposition to this thinking and that is, in infinity, there is only the Now and nothing more. It then appears that both thought processes are correct. It follows then that what each and everyone of us feel and think is then also correct, also true, also real.

There is only one reality and that is Love. How often has this been written? I believe it within the context of the reality that I would prefer. This is true if we want to move out of the current reality which is insanity into one of spiritual awareness and growth. Once again, and unfortunately, those that dwell on the dark side will argue that their way is the only truth and reality. They will tell us that without them we would not experience the truth of light. This, unfortunately is true.

So, where does that leave us, or rather, where does that leave me? Well, it leaves me with a tremendous need to grow further and to love both the light and the dark, as reprehensible as I find the dark to be. That is my need. My need is not your need. My path is not your path and yet we are inseparable. We are one.

In closing I do want to comment on the step-up thread. At first I was wondering just what the heck was going on there and for once I was able to restrain myself and not go jumping in (growth on my part? Perhaps, maybe I am being lazy). That thread is merely an example to us of how we all differ and yet share the same place. This is a perfect example of the "we are one" paradox. Together we are all Avalon. Together we are all seeking to go forward into an unknown place and we are all, in our own limited fashion, trying to create this new reality. Avalon is made up of the sum of her parts just as our universe is also made up of the sum of her parts.(I use the feminine as both have birthing capacity, unlike the male). If we care to look beyond ourselves, we will see that we are indeed, intimately bound into a singularity that is the one-ness of all.

Much Love and Light to All

Z