Re: I have a question about spirituality.
Never pray for patience. The way one becomes patient is to be challenged by things that bug you. The more you become aware of areas you think you need to improve upon, the more you will be faced or be aware of those things, and thus seek to overcome them in an enlightened way.
I have also found that when a newbie first goes into astral / spiritual realm they are like a light in the darkness and may become a "target" for investigation. Don't fall into fear, focus on what you believe is truth, and respond from that area.
It is also wise to work on self forgiveness, and forgiving others who have hurt you. I had a spiritual awakening in 1987 and though I did not know what the 12 step program of AA was, I was taken through a spiritual 12 step program on my own. You might want to look into that program and see if it resonates with you. It's a great way to get a fresh start. You don't have to convert to any religion to do it.
Also, if there are areas you have really struggled, if negative entities have played a role in your life, they may sense a loss of control and challenge you. Just keep focusing on raising your vibrational energy and moving towards unconditional love and away from fear. I hope this helps some.
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