ahh orthadoxymoron.. life is good. After years of riding the paranoia roller coaster it's always good to take a break or just get off for good. Most of the stuff happening we have no control over other then to pray for the best outcome for all concerned.
Perhaps the true gift of consciousness is to be totally present in the moment.. with no worries as to what may be. This means to totally enjoy the gift of the moment, be it senses, smell, beauty, music.. it is focusing on manifesting reality which is harmonious and nuturing.
I would wish for you that you fill those empty moments up with beauty and be at peace.
And if you have taken that inner step of faith.. you already know our consciousness is converging... the internet is just a baby step.. beyond the machanical reality of this vast resource is the spirit, the collective consciousness becoming first; aware, second; connected and third; interfacing with one another.. evolving into telepathic communion as in our great collective global nexus meditaton project. How delightful.