Hey one one seven, i think you'll find most of us on this site have had those thoughts at one stage or another.
In my situation, i knew i was different as a kid, till about 12 then life changed and i ignored this toughts i had .
In the last 10 years they have started again, much stronger than before. And in the past 12 months , the intensity has gone through the roof.
As a teenager in school, you have different priotities to us oldies
, but the general idea is the same for all of us. We know something is going on and know something is going to happen, but don't know exactly what, for now.
You are amongst friends here.
Henry