[Antonia]

Hi Carol....
Like you I am confused about asscention 2012...and the whole thing. If the soul harvest is a supposed ploy of Anu"s to keep us trapped in his universe to power it up..is this univers so bad?? I know the theory is according to the Wing makers and others that we were seduced in to this 3d 4d reality as slave workers... but surely if we are all connected by this big unifieid field of thought then we are connected to Anu and Anu must have progressed spiritually as we have.. If books like Conversations with God are all there to keep us trapped in this reality.. Anu"s ..reality how are we trapped?? When this book says we can return to Prime source when ever we want but do we want to???Lose our 3d identity? So we stay here at our own will? I guess..but then there"s the Secrets of Armenti which tells us we are 12 th dimentional beings and that beings (I guess Anunaki/Anu) want us to assend to 11th dimention when we need to go to the 12th..same story they talk of the star gate Armenti being reactivated...which sounds like the Nexus wave theory just explained differently.... then theres the Galactic federation who another gallactic federation say are conning us and that the real federation of light is different. Then theres assended masters and then we are told they are not the good guys... then theres good aleins bad aliens... the bad guys can interfear but the good guys cant... then theres accsention... but only certian people asscend... Then theres the hidden hand and the Ra materials which talk of a three way split...so many agendas.. personally I think the Elohim and the Anunaki and the Dracconians and the Armenti and God/Anu and all the rest all have their own agendas and none of them are better then the other... it depends on were you want to be?

My problem is I dont know were I want to be???

I want to go were my daughter and my loved ones and my animals are going and I dont want to abandon humanity good or bad...
I even want the manevolent Aliens the Dracosand the Illumanati to chill out and work it all out together... Im sure theres a way for every one to be happy
but Im told not...

I sat meditating and called upon them all yesterday to be accountable and clarify thier intentions...especially the Anunaki...and Anu...

I wasnt sure how they were to comunictae this to me I asked for contact in my mind and soul essence and Im getting big waves of regret and codependent feelings from Anu... He wants his universe to work... Hes bound to it and responsable for our awakining now even though this was not his orginal intention .. he has learnt so much from the human experament and wants his universe to asscend to a higher frquency but let it still be his universe... We as souls yearn to go home to the place from wence we came (Prime Source) yet parts of me are attached to Anu"s world and want"s to give it a chance..

Is this really Anu givingme this message or a part of my self??I dont know!

I dont know were to go and how to align my self in 2012 I feel very strongly that the Nexus healing is a very beautiful and positive thing but do I want to re- emerse my self with Original source yet? I like my individuality- key word Duality there... Like you I am so confused.... Cant they all just learn to merge and work together...? Is that every one and every thing re-merging with prime source and all the energy mixingin to one then bursting out in to a new omniverse and staring the whole creation thing again? IsfAnu the Elohim, the Reptillians the Carians us are all just aspects of the flame of Devine source? Then what happens at the end??

Is it all just like a play staion game of vertual reality and our higher selves are just sitting outside of the game holding the controle stick and playing the game??? How many games do we play??? What happens when we no longer want to play??? I want to stay with the souls I love some are no longer in 3rd D bodies some are... were are they all going??? Which dimention which time line?