[Courtier]

Tomatochip you are not alone i know people like you and i have been like that before i lost interest in others when i came to canada 11 years ago i wasnt socialy accepted at first. hell i even tried to commit suicide but help came out of no where from other people and im greatfull for. like Lenin said "study, study and study." so i studied what ever i wanted i reaserched in to it and i went out and tried it. reading is just theory tho, you gota go out there and experience, that will make you more complete. ... the only thing that keeps me going is believing in your self... we are all one.. if i helped my self i can help others read the secret and try it out in your life it worked for me it will work for you..

one thing i find for people to listen is that you have to show a good example of your life and what this knowledge has done to you. in others eyes if you look and act weird and no one ever talks to you than they dont want to listen to your beliefs even though you want to help
i have experienced many perceptions of life mostly it was corrupt 4 years ago i was seeking knowlege about power and seduction i read many books on theese topics (hustlers and con men, 48 laws of power, art of seduction, Machiavelli etc) even tho it helped me in my daily life and ones i got good at it i still felt that something was missing or wasnt right. so i i got in to phychology trying to understand others part of my talent for being socialy accepted was that i moved alot and switched alot of schools i learned how to interact with others how to make friends how to play with others. after tryign different perceptions i got in to this one and out of all i think this one is the most important for me anddd the most USEFUL (still it is a matrix for now, there are very few of us but you gota remember you are now alone) im greatfull for my gifts but now i wana use it for good causes. i changed for good, i dont seek violence i avoid greed and lust and anger.with knowlege from the past i learned to identify people that are interested in theese things and i avoid them as much as i can now or i even or i change the ones that can b.
i share people a little piece of my lifestile ( even though it isnt the most fascinating i make it seem like it is and it appears that way not only in my eyes but in others), most like it some ask for help or advice and when that time comes i share this side of the story.

the Illuminati are smart but they are still human they say and we are programed that "what can one person do" its wrong... ONE PERSON CAN CHANGE THE WORLD! and history proved this fact mannyyyyy times. i to want to change the world and i use some of illuminatis tactics on how to get others on board. one of their weapons is the media! i stoped watching cable tv and im very careful at what i watch, read and listen to in terms of music. i share videos like the matrix or the fifth element to others, once they see it i make them question things and again let them find out on their own... its more rewarding that way... so dont give up tomatochip and keep trying life was never easy but if you try step by step you will succeed and get what you really want. ill stop rambling now lol.