I can relate to your desire to free others. My first decade of awakening... that's mostly what I tried to do. I just couldn't understand people's indifference!!! "Can't you see what is happening before your eyes?"
To me, these things I was putting together in my awareness were of great importance but very few people, maybe only about 2% could even BEGIN to have a conversation about these topics. (Why the world is the way it is, et's, paranormal, soul, spirit, illuminati, masons, metaphysics, etc.) As time when on and I just got more frustrated at how dumb people are, I began to understand that it's just not their timing to wake up yet, or it may never be their purpose to do so. All I know is that has been my purpose to do so.
And why do I 'see' and others do not? I don't know. But I know that I do. I do sometimes ask a pointed question to someone to probe where their consciousness is at, but I've pretty much stopped trying to be a catalyst to free anyone. And I remind myself that to see myself as 'more enlightened' than another is an ego trap, and so, I have to continually embrace humility. Yet, I know that I know. You understand?
Bottom line: it's out of my hands! I personally believe there's an intelligence at work in this world that is perfect. I CHOOSE to believe this. I like to embrace a benevolent 'first cause'. I can't be responsible for other people's spiritual development. The best I can do is be clean inside myself, Vigilant with my own mind, and do what I can when it feels right to ask that timely question to someone, but never argue, preach, or try to outspeak someone who cannot understand what I understand. On these topics, the uninitiated simply don't get it because they have been indocrinated with another language... the language of 'the world'. It's all they know.
I'm very alone in my life. I have no friends I can talk to about the things I find most intriguing. My family, all, can only talk about the mundane or spit out bits and pieces of their programming. These are all fine people and I love them, but they live a different life than I do. Their preceived world is a much different place than mine. I understand. I was once in that world, but I'm just not in it anymore. I see it as an ugly, competitive place of exploitation and control. A reverse world where what is really good and healthy is called bad or taboo and all the really horrible things are called good. Ever wonder why we continually have the most evil, black hearted people in places of authority? It's that way all over the world. I can't bear to watch TV. I try to be tolerant but I just see through it all to the point that it is painful to be in the same room with a talking head on the screen. Ultimately, the more time goes by, the world out there is nothing but a distraction to what seems most important.
So I embrace a world that is larger than this one. A world where the presence of evil is allowed for the evolution of souls. A testing ground for 'seeing' the truth. I think when we begin to see, we are getting closer to graduation. To what, I haven't a clue, but I think it's a similar progression... towards wisdom, love and greater freedom of expression.
Personally, the cost for my search for the truth has been isolation. I get it. I see a lot and understand (to a degree) what this drama on planet earth is all about. But I have not been able to truly share it with another, as much as I want to. Perhaps that is why I am here on this forum, openning the window of opportunity to connect with another of like mind.
But as far as trying to change other people's perceptions.... it's a lost cause! You might as well try to teach a cat to bark. It's just going to look at you and go 'meow' cause that is all it knows. That said, I definately see evidence of an awakening going on all over the place. Now, it's almost 'hip' to speak of metaphysics. But there are so many diversions that the Elite controllers have put in place, it is only the pure of heart and the very genuine lover of the truth that will be able to sort it out. It appears the closer to end game that we get, the more severely our 'truth barometer's are being tested.
But we have to know that we can't change anyone else. That's the law of Allowance. Those people have their own timetable for seeing through the illusion. And I suspect many will never see it. I personally believe many people walking around are not really human. This is totally my intuition, (and some study in this area), but there are et's in human bodies and many clones. And many young spirits that have many lifetimes of experiences before they will even get a clue as to what they are living in here. I choose to leave their destiny in the hands of the Creator and focus on my own path, as I do not by any means have it all sorted out myself, but I continue to work on it, because... I'm still here, so, what else am I suppose to do?
