A conscious struggle?
 

I feel aware that what I should be (and am) projecting is positive energy and light and peace, focus myself thru explorations of methods of meditation and the like yet there's a part of me that continues to sour resources on current and past "truths" (fringe studies) as well. I ask myself if I should be focusing more now on exploring the more healing and transverance of energy methods to fully"jump on" to assist everyone here with where we "by conscious thought", want to take the world? (since now awakened) Hmmm, Can you become more awake?.......Not sure if these are really questions posed or more just a statement to myself. Am curious if anyone also feels the same struggle? I dont differentiate the two as one exploration as being good and the other evil, only that each seems to focus on different outcomes.